Too much usagi drop

or more like too much emo/slice of life anime/manga/comics/book/dramas/movies/tv shows. but really you got to agree with me that rin is BLOODY cute, that makes you want to have kids... okay not now but like to have a kid like her (if possible)

*finally i have a coloured ver of this shot* (screen cap from the anime, all rights goes to production I.G.)

but that is not the point of this post [yap every photo on this blog is like not really related to the topic, but really i dun have much pics in my database that i can really use]

okay but really i just need to think out loud at least once here, (if u read this, i think we really need to hang out more together, cause really, i starting to feel the strain)

I am really those kind of guys that find most shounen mangas/anime are not my thing, (god knows why are they still so popular with some people of my age group) I really follow seinen and josei stuff. (yes i read shoujo mangas if they are nice).   

take example, this season of anime, i only followed USAGI DROP ( am i turning to a lolicon or i just want to have kids.....) and Kami-sama  no memo-chou ( okay alice is a loli, but the story is good and she is a NEET). the other stuff? i dun seem to be interested at all. * i rather download season 1 to 6 of "How I Met Your Mother" than to watch... mhh tiger and bunny..* i will rather read Oyasumi Pun Pun over one piece or even FMA.*

Just look at the manga collection i have at home. Welcome to the NHK, GENSHIKEN, TRINITY BLOOD, PEACEMAKER, alot of asano inio stuff. Kurosagi Corpse Delivery Service, MPD, March Comes in Like a Lion, hourou musume, ya it is a gloomy lot of manga. but i like it, i grounds me abit and realised, life is not that sucky...

okay who am i kidding, an average joe in a manga can score a girl, and i think i can do the same... think i can hold on to a relationship thanks to a manga, whose characters get together since first year of uni... who am i kidding.

Where we go from here?

I really dunnoe, but i hope it is for a better future.

I been thinking too much these days in camp, and me thinking too much doesn't goes well with the rest of my body and self... usually i will use work to curb this issue, but serving the nation lets you have too much time to think, so ya save me from this place. i need more work to overwork myself.

I wish I knew what am I doing...

God I miss that 700¥ thrift shop along cat street in Tokyo... I wish there are such awesome shop in Singapore.... really salvation army is not a good thrift shop and there are little choices other than that.

Well that is not the point of this post... I dunnoe man... For the pass few weeks , the more I dun do anything... I start to think too much once again...
Thinking of the army.
Thinking of work.
Thinking of my photography...
Thinking about my life...
Thinking about her...

It not that I am having a bad time/ torturing myself. But somehow, I dun feel comfortable when I am happy... *damn I spent too much time emoing*

I am too used to be sad, down, alone. But when the happy moments come by, somehow I will cock things up... I knew shit like this will happen but yet instead of avoiding it, I just drive straight through, telling myself it is okay. But really is it okay? Is it okay for me to go though this torture? Is it okay for me to continue on what I am doing?...

I really dun know.. But whatever it is I will still try to survive. And do what I can do to support you, if you are reading this....

In pain.

Okay no photos coz I am blogging from tekong. It been awhile since I last posted anything here, well a lot of shit/ pain happened but well I kinda expected this to happened to me during this 2 years.

-Skip this post if u dun want to read my bitching. And ah new Photos will be up this weekend -

Well for those that have not been followin me on twitter ( which amazingly I am able to update it) I been diagnosied with a rotoary cuff injury (supraspinatus tendiopathy) on my right shoulder and It seems I torn a tendon. And the fucked up thing, it was due to push up...

Not to mention, I am here in tekong (BMT) for 8 weeks and I injuried myself like in the 2nd week. And from what it seems I will have to recourse BMT in 6 months or so after this tear heal.

Is it fair?, nope, come on I was obviously an unfit soldier thrown into PES B and gotten heat cramps in the first 2 weeks and torn a tendon. What else I need to get for them to realise that there is something wrong with me?

So basically for the last 6 weeks and for the coming 40 plus days I am excused doing nearly everything and wasting my life in tekong. And before this I only went to A&E like once for my stomach infection...

really I never went to the hospital so many times in a month.
Never had 3 different injections in a span of 3 days...
Had like 2 times the number of x-rays that I had my entire life. Or even an ultra sound scan to find that I have a hole in my shoulder...
Oh ya not to mention the amount of painkillers I am on.

Thank goodness, SAF is paying every cent or not I really wonder why the hell am I risking my life for this army. Not that I hate singapore it is just that I am not built to be a soldier. I can help in other ways but not in runnin up and down hills as a riflemen.

Well I better stop bitching and go back filling in my injury report forms which is made so people like me can't filled it in or so SAF will not need to do a single pay out to "minor" cases like mine, they got to be more worried of the SCT that had a 40mm exploded or the other SCT that died in the west.

Who really cares of the recruits at tekong? Well not the MO, I meant look at the flu case...

Going back home

If i considered from the time i went to tokyo, till now. For the past 5 weeks i only slept in my own bed or to be more accurate, was at home for 6 nights... 6 freaking nights... out of 35 days...

I am starting to miss my freedom really much,
i am starting to hate the fact that i have to go back to camp tomorrow evening,
I am already hating some of the guys in my platoon,
not to mention,
I am hating the fact that i am kind of injured thanks to national service.

The doctors says i have a rotator cuff injury on my right shoulder... i dun think it will heal thanks to NS... but this is really a Fuck you to the MO at CMPB, i am really not meant to be a PES B recruit and see what happens. I did nothing wrong except to follow trainings and yet i am injured... Oh wells.

if the specialist say it is really more screwed up than what it is now... i really have nothing to say.

I need some jack....

Okay right jack lives in odaiba....

it is nearly 1 month since tokyo and i am getting used to tekong.... on my next book out will be exactly 1 month since i lost my hair and my pink IC...
Training is not that killer yet but wel nearly after every run i tend to have cramps or heat cramps and my right shoulder is killing me with PAIN...
other than that tekong is quite "fun"

i do miss some stuff like surfing the net, sleeping till 12noon or sleeping at 5am. i miss shooting photos... i miss my mac... i really MISSING alot of anime and manga that i have to batch torrent them EVERY friday night... what else i miss???

cosfest X.1 [day 1]

no photos yet unless u want unwash films....

so it must be "fate" that my 1st book out is JUST nice for cosfest and i am booking in tonight, cosplay-wise this time round.... there are some nice ones but i am lazy to shoot.

oh wells 11 hours more of freedom left....

botak, fried and tired

(this pic is unrelated to this post)
ps ( i need to upload tokyo pics!)

Well you should realised that the last 17-18 days i was not online, or updating my blogs or even best i have not FLOOD your facebook wall with my twitter updates... well coz i needed to conserve battery AND sadly my camp still do not have the wifi network up yet....

I will be at cosfest this weekend so try to spot me if you can. so good night!. *sleeps*

Leaving on a jet plane

All my bags are packed I’m ready to go
I’m standing here outside your door
I hate to wake you up to say good-bye
But the dawn is breaking, it’s early morn’
The taxi’s waiting, he’s blowing his horn
Already I’m so lonesome I could die

So kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you’ll wait for me
Hold me like you’ll never let me go
Cause I’m leaving on a jet plane
I don’t know when I’ll be back again
Oh babe, I hate to go

There’s so many times I’ve let you down
So many times I’ve played around
I tell you now, they don’t mean a thing
Every place I go I’ll think of you
Every song I sing I sing for you
When I come back I’ll wear your wedding ring

So kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you’ll wait for me
Hold me like you’ll never let me go
Cause I’m leaving on a jet plane
I don’t know when I’ll be back again
Oh babe, I hate to go

Now the time has come to leave you
One more time let me kiss you
And close your eyes and I’ll be on my way
Dream about the days to come
When I don’t have to leave alone
About the times that I won’t have to say

Oh kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you’ll wait for me
Hold me like you’ll never let me go
Cause I’m leaving on a jet plane
I don’t know when I’ll be back again
Oh babe, I hate to go

Cause I’m leaving on a jet plane
I don’t know when I’ll be back again
Oh babe, I hate to go

I’m leaving on a jet plane
I don’t know when I’ll be back again
Oh babe, I hate to go
I’m leaving on a jet plane
Leaving on a jet plane
Leaving on a jet plane
Leaving on a jet plane

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Okay i am not leaving on a jet plane. i am taking a ferry to tekong for well at least a 4 month "resort" trip, where i am paid to run around it. and sweat and learn to shoot.

it is called NS LOL.

anyway i dun think i can blog that much for now. but well i have my not so smart phone so i can be contacted by phone(8pm-11pm), sms, email, twitter IF i got enough battery lol.

so ya i am no longer a civilian in well 7 hours. 

About Tokyo

I am here for a week, tokyo is awesome really. only issue it is sucking me dry VERY FAST.

lets do a short recap:

25/5[W]: SG->TOKYO, reach ueno at 8pm, standing sushi dinner. SLEEP.
[T]: met up with @gk_reiko and headed to kawagoe and went shopping at ikebukuro's otome road...
[F]: overslept and went to shinjuku to get films, nakano boardway. and went to the lomography gallery in shibuya to get my LC-A+ [which now have clocked more rolls of film than my fisheye ] and met eldred for dinner and an awesome pub/coffee shop.
[S]: overslept. went to Good smile cafe and queue for 2hrs and 45mins in the rain, just to eat QB up.. then on to akihabara and MOGRA!!!!!!
[S]: left MORGA at 5.30am, managed to give TEDDYLOID my namecard and went back to the inn at 5am. and it is BRIGHT. woke up at 3pm, went to harajuku in the rain. Ended up eatting dinner at Freshness burger on cat street. that day was horrible.
[M]: headed north for the tochigi, got the wrong station. so save time headed to the Lucky star shrine at Washinomiya, was closed by the time i reached.  then try 2nd round to find the right station that was used in 5 cm per second. it was EPIC FAIL DAY.
[T]: weather was awesome, went to explore UENO park, UENO zoo and tokyo national museum. then to the tokyo station that area and then to AKB again to get the instaxs.
[W]: woke up early to realise that tsukiji market is close on wed. Meet up/ pick up. @icecreamtrkben and @funkyforest at UENO station and then went film hunting at Shinjuku then to Shimokitazawa and cat street/harajuku for some 2nd hand clothes shopping. Got an shirt, I look normal here, but i think if i wear it back home, folks will stare...
[T]: woke up early but late to go to tsukiji market with  @icecreamtrkben and @funkyforest. spent ¥3500 on breakfast lol we spilt from there, i went wondering at tsukishima area shooting alot of pics from the manga called "March comes in like a lion". then to round 3 of hunting down the 5 cm per second station. WHICH I DID!. AWESOME PLACE PLEASE. then to Shibuya for dinner and Tower Records.

Plans for the the final 3 days?

[F]:Odaiba area and maybe to shibamata if the weather is good., if it is bad, then to tokyo Sea life park!
[S]: Asakusa area and a flea market some where in town.
[S]: a cosplay event in TFT, then rush back to my INN and then to haneda for my 00:30 flight back to SG.

plans in singapore?:
[M]: arrive 6.30am, unpack, go out , evening with the dvfx gang, drink!
[T]: ppl who need to GET THINGS FROM ME, GET ON THIS DAY. Evening: dinner with parents.
[W]: i will be botak.
[T]: no internet.
[F]: oh the tekong
[S]: PTP
[S]: from heaven to hell u know
[M]: still on tekong
[T]: get the drill lah