YO dude, I need some cash

$420 a month minus $20 insurance... and about $100 on transport. tell me how to survive? and i am only earning that amount for the next 2 years as i will be a Recruit for life lol..

damn... i wish i was working instead of serving the country.

Where we go from here?

I really dunnoe, but i hope it is for a better future.

I been thinking too much these days in camp, and me thinking too much doesn't goes well with the rest of my body and self... usually i will use work to curb this issue, but serving the nation lets you have too much time to think, so ya save me from this place. i need more work to overwork myself.

I wish I knew what am I doing...

God I miss that 700¥ thrift shop along cat street in Tokyo... I wish there are such awesome shop in Singapore.... really salvation army is not a good thrift shop and there are little choices other than that.

Well that is not the point of this post... I dunnoe man... For the pass few weeks , the more I dun do anything... I start to think too much once again...
Thinking of the army.
Thinking of work.
Thinking of my photography...
Thinking about my life...
Thinking about her...

It not that I am having a bad time/ torturing myself. But somehow, I dun feel comfortable when I am happy... *damn I spent too much time emoing*

I am too used to be sad, down, alone. But when the happy moments come by, somehow I will cock things up... I knew shit like this will happen but yet instead of avoiding it, I just drive straight through, telling myself it is okay. But really is it okay? Is it okay for me to go though this torture? Is it okay for me to continue on what I am doing?...

I really dun know.. But whatever it is I will still try to survive. And do what I can do to support you, if you are reading this....

Leaving on a jet plane

All my bags are packed I’m ready to go
I’m standing here outside your door
I hate to wake you up to say good-bye
But the dawn is breaking, it’s early morn’
The taxi’s waiting, he’s blowing his horn
Already I’m so lonesome I could die

So kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you’ll wait for me
Hold me like you’ll never let me go
Cause I’m leaving on a jet plane
I don’t know when I’ll be back again
Oh babe, I hate to go

There’s so many times I’ve let you down
So many times I’ve played around
I tell you now, they don’t mean a thing
Every place I go I’ll think of you
Every song I sing I sing for you
When I come back I’ll wear your wedding ring

So kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you’ll wait for me
Hold me like you’ll never let me go
Cause I’m leaving on a jet plane
I don’t know when I’ll be back again
Oh babe, I hate to go

Now the time has come to leave you
One more time let me kiss you
And close your eyes and I’ll be on my way
Dream about the days to come
When I don’t have to leave alone
About the times that I won’t have to say

Oh kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you’ll wait for me
Hold me like you’ll never let me go
Cause I’m leaving on a jet plane
I don’t know when I’ll be back again
Oh babe, I hate to go

Cause I’m leaving on a jet plane
I don’t know when I’ll be back again
Oh babe, I hate to go

I’m leaving on a jet plane
I don’t know when I’ll be back again
Oh babe, I hate to go
I’m leaving on a jet plane
Leaving on a jet plane
Leaving on a jet plane
Leaving on a jet plane

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Okay i am not leaving on a jet plane. i am taking a ferry to tekong for well at least a 4 month "resort" trip, where i am paid to run around it. and sweat and learn to shoot.

it is called NS LOL.

anyway i dun think i can blog that much for now. but well i have my not so smart phone so i can be contacted by phone(8pm-11pm), sms, email, twitter IF i got enough battery lol.

so ya i am no longer a civilian in well 7 hours. 

day 3 loot

Yap, it is just day 3 and i spending alot. I went to shijuku today. and went up the tower, then to nakano boardway....found stuff, then walked from harajuku to shibuya just to get my LC-A+ from lomography. waiting at hachiko in the rain, just to have ramen dinner with eldred and end up at this damn small but awesome cafe/bar called MEMEME. He said it is new so new that it was a bakery on google street . it was an awesome chilax place... hahha.

where to go tmr? akb? and asakusa? i really need to stop spending lol