One year on....

1 year ago, at this timing I left the land of the rising sun on a very wet night. Even thought I felt Tokyo was not that long ago, time really went by quite fast for the past 1 year. ( okay it felt damn long especially when I am in Tekong, twice some more)  Right after that long 12 days in Tokyo. I had 48hours to prep myself for the longest waste of my life. National service. Not that I am against it but I felt that I can put my life into a better use than me training my not so physically fit body.

So during the past year many things had changed:
 I had got into a relationship,
then went to get injured in Tekong.
 Kena out of course from Tekong,
got horribly frustrated,
then gotten out of  the relationship.
Became even more horribly frustrated with myself and super emotional.
 Went back to Tekong again.
Shoulder weaken even more.
Became quite of a hermit.
Stop being interesting.
Watching more drama than animes
Realised my Life may end up worse than Ted.
Lost my creative touch
Rotting on 9gag
My SLR died, D300s is kinda rotting away. LC-A+ filled with a film that only managed to move 3 frames a week.
Getting really emotional over small things.
And diablo 3 maybe the only thing I do when I get home.

Feeling abit sian.

I just found out my Minolta XD7 is dying, and i think i will have to part with this vintage series soon.

 I am going to try to save up and get a Leica M6 soon.

for now my films will be mostly LOMO + my Nikon 35Ti

Missing life

Going back to Tekong Is really demoralizing.

Going back to Tekong on a Friday night is even more demoralizing...

I am missing the outside world once again, but then what is it so difference between me being stuck in the DVFX lab and in an army camp? I was missing my life too back then when I had to camp day after days and burn my weekend on my Mac just to do work.

The army is just boring and due to the fact I am so disconnected from the net, I guess I that y I felt I really missing my life...

I am not really a outgoing person, and ain't really social able ( offline or online )... So ya... There goes my life. If is not for school and work, I doubt I will have friends outside that circle. ( okay cosplay is another thing..)

So well I have to end this post as I am reaching the ferry terminal to go back to Tekong to burn my long weekend off. But really 1 more mth left before I go back to unit. I guess I just have to tahan.

I just want to fly away

I always have this issue when i am thrown into a new environment. Being out of my comfort zone is kinda tiring for me as i tend to use way too much energy pretending that i am okay while i am not.
i has been in this state for multiple times during this short coming to 22 years.

things NEED to be done in 2012.

it is not a new year resolution list. it is more like I HAVE to complete this list of things in 2012.

1. GET MY DRIVING LICENSE [after tekong that is]: took my BTT when i was 18, and my FTT lapses last year... so ya...

2. Start making a list of photoshoot concepts with reference pics, location references

3. upgrade my NAS... i need 2 more 2TB

4. clear my backlog.

5. redo my portfolio

6. make a new demo reel.

7. clear my room. have too many shit.

8. saving money for new FX lens.

9. save more cash to upgrade to a FX cam in 2013

10. save some more cash in hopes to go to japan after NS.

11. need to stop being down.

12. get happy.

13. be positive.

14. Get attached...

chances that 11 to 14 won't happen this year i guess. i tried that in last year. it worked for awhile.but guess what i am back to square one like every year. i need to move on and find someone/ something else. whatever it is 2012 you better be better. i can't take another 2011 or 2010 or 2007...

Going back home

If i considered from the time i went to tokyo, till now. For the past 5 weeks i only slept in my own bed or to be more accurate, was at home for 6 nights... 6 freaking nights... out of 35 days...

I am starting to miss my freedom really much,
i am starting to hate the fact that i have to go back to camp tomorrow evening,
I am already hating some of the guys in my platoon,
not to mention,
I am hating the fact that i am kind of injured thanks to national service.

The doctors says i have a rotator cuff injury on my right shoulder... i dun think it will heal thanks to NS... but this is really a Fuck you to the MO at CMPB, i am really not meant to be a PES B recruit and see what happens. I did nothing wrong except to follow trainings and yet i am injured... Oh wells.

if the specialist say it is really more screwed up than what it is now... i really have nothing to say.

Leaving on a jet plane

All my bags are packed I’m ready to go
I’m standing here outside your door
I hate to wake you up to say good-bye
But the dawn is breaking, it’s early morn’
The taxi’s waiting, he’s blowing his horn
Already I’m so lonesome I could die

So kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you’ll wait for me
Hold me like you’ll never let me go
Cause I’m leaving on a jet plane
I don’t know when I’ll be back again
Oh babe, I hate to go

There’s so many times I’ve let you down
So many times I’ve played around
I tell you now, they don’t mean a thing
Every place I go I’ll think of you
Every song I sing I sing for you
When I come back I’ll wear your wedding ring

So kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you’ll wait for me
Hold me like you’ll never let me go
Cause I’m leaving on a jet plane
I don’t know when I’ll be back again
Oh babe, I hate to go

Now the time has come to leave you
One more time let me kiss you
And close your eyes and I’ll be on my way
Dream about the days to come
When I don’t have to leave alone
About the times that I won’t have to say

Oh kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you’ll wait for me
Hold me like you’ll never let me go
Cause I’m leaving on a jet plane
I don’t know when I’ll be back again
Oh babe, I hate to go

Cause I’m leaving on a jet plane
I don’t know when I’ll be back again
Oh babe, I hate to go

I’m leaving on a jet plane
I don’t know when I’ll be back again
Oh babe, I hate to go
I’m leaving on a jet plane
Leaving on a jet plane
Leaving on a jet plane
Leaving on a jet plane

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Okay i am not leaving on a jet plane. i am taking a ferry to tekong for well at least a 4 month "resort" trip, where i am paid to run around it. and sweat and learn to shoot.

it is called NS LOL.

anyway i dun think i can blog that much for now. but well i have my not so smart phone so i can be contacted by phone(8pm-11pm), sms, email, twitter IF i got enough battery lol.

so ya i am no longer a civilian in well 7 hours. 

About Tokyo

I am here for a week, tokyo is awesome really. only issue it is sucking me dry VERY FAST.

lets do a short recap:

25/5[W]: SG->TOKYO, reach ueno at 8pm, standing sushi dinner. SLEEP.
[T]: met up with @gk_reiko and headed to kawagoe and went shopping at ikebukuro's otome road...
[F]: overslept and went to shinjuku to get films, nakano boardway. and went to the lomography gallery in shibuya to get my LC-A+ [which now have clocked more rolls of film than my fisheye ] and met eldred for dinner and an awesome pub/coffee shop.
[S]: overslept. went to Good smile cafe and queue for 2hrs and 45mins in the rain, just to eat QB up.. then on to akihabara and MOGRA!!!!!!
[S]: left MORGA at 5.30am, managed to give TEDDYLOID my namecard and went back to the inn at 5am. and it is BRIGHT. woke up at 3pm, went to harajuku in the rain. Ended up eatting dinner at Freshness burger on cat street. that day was horrible.
[M]: headed north for the tochigi, got the wrong station. so save time headed to the Lucky star shrine at Washinomiya, was closed by the time i reached.  then try 2nd round to find the right station that was used in 5 cm per second. it was EPIC FAIL DAY.
[T]: weather was awesome, went to explore UENO park, UENO zoo and tokyo national museum. then to the tokyo station that area and then to AKB again to get the instaxs.
[W]: woke up early to realise that tsukiji market is close on wed. Meet up/ pick up. @icecreamtrkben and @funkyforest at UENO station and then went film hunting at Shinjuku then to Shimokitazawa and cat street/harajuku for some 2nd hand clothes shopping. Got an shirt, I look normal here, but i think if i wear it back home, folks will stare...
[T]: woke up early but late to go to tsukiji market with  @icecreamtrkben and @funkyforest. spent ¥3500 on breakfast lol we spilt from there, i went wondering at tsukishima area shooting alot of pics from the manga called "March comes in like a lion". then to round 3 of hunting down the 5 cm per second station. WHICH I DID!. AWESOME PLACE PLEASE. then to Shibuya for dinner and Tower Records.

Plans for the the final 3 days?

[F]:Odaiba area and maybe to shibamata if the weather is good., if it is bad, then to tokyo Sea life park!
[S]: Asakusa area and a flea market some where in town.
[S]: a cosplay event in TFT, then rush back to my INN and then to haneda for my 00:30 flight back to SG.

plans in singapore?:
[M]: arrive 6.30am, unpack, go out , evening with the dvfx gang, drink!
[T]: ppl who need to GET THINGS FROM ME, GET ON THIS DAY. Evening: dinner with parents.
[W]: i will be botak.
[T]: no internet.
[F]: oh the tekong
[S]: PTP
[S]: from heaven to hell u know
[M]: still on tekong
[T]: get the drill lah

BRB i gtg to tokyo to R&R

no this is not tokyo.

But yap i am heading to the airport right now.
will be in tokyo from 25th May to 5th June.
Back in SG on 6th June 6.30am via SQ. so if you all want to meet up at changi ALSO CAN. HAHA.

anyways, i will be contactable via my singapore number, Viber [ coz whatsapp dun work on my ipod], twitter [DM or @ ], skype, msn and well email via togusa.chan[at]gmail.com or togusa[at]togusachan.net lol.
so till then.

sayonara シンガポール

a chapter of my life have set.

oh boy this going to be cheesy but really in 3 days time my life as a student will finally end, if i can afford it then i will have the chance to for further studies but with my dad retiring once i am out of national service. I think i have to start working to support the household.

For now, i just want to think of the present and my tokyo trip lol.
it is just abit sian when i reaslised i have so little time in singapore to spend before i get shipped off to that island in the east that nearly every boy in Singapore goes to....

PS: my "demo reel" is up but well u all seen it too many times LOL. but then now i know what to do for my demo reel the next time update the site.

A few words.

I AM GOING TO TOKYO!!!!!!!!

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ps: flying on 25th May and out at 6th June midnight. so... i should be Okay for meet ups from 26th May to 5th June.

anyone got ideas where is interesting in tokyo to shoot street photography? i know the usual places, kinda want to shoot the more hidden side of tokyo... stuff that gaijins dun see everyday.

I am kinda using lonely planet guide, DannyChoo's photo blog entrys, some friends recommendations....

anyway i will be taking some orders.... that will come later... for now I AM GOING TO TOKYO!!!!

What kind of photographer am i?

Really it been 4 years since i picked up my D40 from fukuoka's Yodobashi Camera on 21st December 2006... and well alot of things changed... In terms of life.. it was basically from O Level to aerospace, with 4 months of fooling around... then quit aerospace engineering for Digital visual effects as i gotten more interested in arts and design once again... and stuck in there till i am doing this 3D short film. Life has its up and down... so down that i was moodless, but well it was never that great... i still never had a better year that in 2007 since then.... [ yes the last 3 years was still shitty but getting better]

anyway on to the photography aspect...

on dA, they have this option to say what i am... the problem is i dunnoe what kind of photographer am i. I really shoot everything thus i should be a General Digital photographer, but i also shoot film. But these days i shoot more pano then portaits. but i shoot more people than landscapes... so what kind of photographer am i?

lets see --- goes back in time --