Islands

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I don’t have to leave anymore
What I have is right here
Spent my nights and days before
Searching the world for what’s right here

Underneath and unexplored
Islands and cities I have looked
Here I saw
Something I couldn’t over look

I am yours now
So now I don’t ever have to leave
I’ve been found out
So now I’ll never explore

See what I’ve done
That bridge is on fire
Go back to where I’ve been
I’m froze by desire
No need to leave

Where would I be
If this were to go under
It’s a risk I’d take
I’m froze by desire
As if a choice I'd make

I am yours now
So now I don’t ever have to leave
I’ve been found out
So now I’ll never explore

So now I’ll never explore

islands by The XX

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something that i got hooked on recently.

moodless night

How to say good bye by Paul Tiernan


Living isn't quite the same
You said to me, it's runnin' away.
If you're scared or tired of what you're scared of
Why should you stay
You love to say goodbye
And always counted all the time
'til he was free
to get up and leave
to learn how to breathe
again...

Slippin' out to have a cigarette
with someone else that he'd never met
Ask her if by the way would you like to
run away and try to forget
Just not to stay
To leave without saying why

To get up and go
To catch the last train
To get in some car and drive out again
To never come back this way
Left to say:

goodbye
so long
farewell
ovwar

goodbye
so long
farewell
ovwuar

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is it farewell?

damn....

my projects are all done and submitted and here i am. wondering too much again...

did i mess up my 2nd sem? i am not talking about results as i know what i going to get...

i am wondering about my class once again... year after year in this education system, i wonder when will it be the last time i will not get outcasted...

in primary school it was due to my aunt who was the disciple mistress for 2 years... some of them knew it. then it was the case of i did not fit in as from the top few classes i fell between the cracks to the last few...

in secondary school, i was bullied too much by idiots and "frens"... the only place i felt in school was the robotics lab, where all the "different" people met...

1st year in poly, Aerospace, i was totally i can say different from all that was there... i kinda stood out like a sore thumb then when i thought i will be normal in dvfx... i still sticking out different from the rest... i dunnoe y, but am i that different to them? am i that weird coz i am an otaku? coz i read manga, listen to japanese music, have a different taste in arts and food.

Do i need to conform?

wait is it worth trying to conform? I am who i am coz i did not want to be what i was supposed to be. I tried to be different to fit in, but i guess i am too different that i cannot fit in once again....

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Looking at you now, remember how you gave me shit,
And I made lemonade out of it
Pass me the sugar and things still won't be right!
Look what you've built, now are you proud of your deceitful quilt
Well I won't cover myself in it, the warmth has just been choking me!

Thanks! Thanks for nothing
I've taken all you got and started walking,
Not broken, still standing,
Been ripped apart, but now I'm demanding
No more shit, this is it
I am leaving for myself and no one else
So long, been swell, see you in hell!

What would you say? Can't hear
you buried in the lies that you've laid.
I'm breaking myself away from that chain, to bad you don't understand why
I'm walking away, and if you're lucky then someday I may
Possibly forgive you for all of it.
But not today, BUT NOT TODAY!

Lemonade by Tsunami Bomb

anyone else but you?

Anyone else but you
from JUNO ost.


Your part time lover and a full time friend,
The monkey on the back is the latest trend,
Don't see what anyone can see,
In anyone else,
But you

Here is a church and here is a steeple,
We sure are cute for two ugly people,
Don't see what anyone can see,
In anyone else,
But you

We both have shiny happy fits of rage,
I want more fans, you want more stage,
Don't see what anyone can see,
In anyone else,
But you

I'm always tryin to keep it real,
Now I'm in love with how you feel,
I don't see what anyone can see,
In anyone else,
But you

I kiss you on the brain in the shadow of the train,
I kiss you all starry eyed,
My body swings from side to side,
I don't see what anyone can see,
In anyone else,
But you

The pebbles forgive me,
The trees forgive me,
So why can't,
You forgive me?
I don't see what anyone can see,
In anyone else,
But you

Du du du du du du dudu
Du du du du du du dudu
I don't see what anyone can see,
In anyone else,
But you.

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Damn.... finding anyone that want to watch in the weeks to come! weekday better coz the movie ticket prices is nearly the same in japan!

Full moon sways

Yap... Full moon sways, gently on the night of one fine day...*it is fullmoon tonight. eat your moodcakes ah*

Online Videos by Veoh.com

okay the PV from beat crusaders is funny and sad...

haiz..

next!

my dad is officially giving up on looking after fishes... *no more pets in this household. damn. i want a hamster or a small tank*
but i had to help to clean this god damn tank... *and i am not the owner...*

haiz... well life is pretty moodless these few days.



i want to get out of the house,
run away from the hell.
But i got no where else to go.
Close friends' place seem so distant.
The place i hid,
before is forbidden.
hanging outside is too much.

I like to stay away from home.
but i have no place to go.
My old lab is no longer mine.
Her room is hers.
the rest got to study...

i dun feel comfortable in school.
felt like a loner,
but not as an outcast.
she tell me to mix,
but i am afraid.

i am looking for a girl.
but it is not possible.
my heart is stuck to one.
i know she is a no.
but my heart can't wait,
but one will come my way.



haiz. kage is finally back online *she got a new pc. too bad it is vista*

well a song

it's happy line by yui
i will do a translation soon...

誰の為に生きているの?
さえない日々を過ごして

弱さも痛みも
どのくらい感じてるの?

足りない昨日におぼれ
夢に書いた今日
そろわなくても　yeah yeah

夜明け前の瞬く星は
消えて行ったの?　
明日へ行ったの?

Tomorrow never knows
It’s happy line

何を信じていけばいい?
見えない日々を過ごして

どんな夜を見ても
もう暗い顔しないで

誰もが幸せを呼ぶ笑顔
見えているの?
笑えなくても　yeah yeah

明日への想いを胸に
赤い目を見て
笑ってみたの

Tomorrow never knows
It’s happy line

足りない昨日におぼれ
夢に書いた今日
そろわなくても　yeah yeah

夜明け前の瞬く星は
消えて行ったの?
明日へ行ったの?

Tomorrow never knows
It’s happy line

[戻る]

moodless writing

Rainy days

lyrics by togusa, music by Do as infinity [Summer days]

Rainy days, I can’t stand the rainy days
Cold weather and freezing nights
What’s so great about it anyway?
Rainy days, let it be a sunny day
Wet roads and flooded paths
Got to be nuts to love it in any ways
I hate rainy days

Rushing to school, on this wet day?
You got to be kidding me,
I rather to sleep
than to get out of bed
Traveling in this pour, the bus,
It will get slower with every raindrop.
I give up and fall back to sleep.
Not every morning is a nice cold one.
Come on, it is best to sleep in right now.
Let the fucking rain pass.
Damn, just let me sleep!!

Rainy days, I can’t stand the rainy days
Cold weather and freezing nights
What’s so great about it anyway?
Rainy days, let it be a sunny day
Wet roads and flooded paths
Got to be nuts to love it in any ways
Goddamn rainy days

Kage was the one, who said that rainy day was supposed to be great!
Stop lying to yourself
You should know well, that is fake.
Traveling in this weather, to any where,
getting very wet on the way.
What happened to your pants?
And Shoes? Ain’t they wet?
Who said that rain could cool the day?
Nothing happened in anyways
Damn, give me time to change!

Rainy days, I can’t stand the rainy days
Cold weather and freezing nights
What’s so great about it anyway?
Rainy days, let it be a sunny day
Wet roads and flooded paths
Got to be nuts to love it in any ways
Who needs rainy days?

Rainy days, they are never the same.
From the first drop to the last one
Leaving a mess behind
Rainy day, why oh why on a rainy day
You left me without saying goodbye
Taking all, far faraway
No more rainy days

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Sing it to the song, summer days by do as infinity. i thought of recording this verison, but realised my voice is not up to standard..... so if any kind girl that can sing wants to help me with this, please contact me, i will help to do the basic recording...

good bye days

Some music for all


Good bye days by yui

だからいま　会いにゆく　そう決めたんだ
ポケットの　この曲を　君に聴かせたい

そっとヴォリュームを上げて　確かめてみたよ

oh Good-bye days
いま　変わる気がする
　昨日までに　so long
かっこよくない優しさがそばにあるから
～with you

片方の　イヤフォンを　君に渡す
ゆっくりと　流れ込む　この瞬間

うまく愛せていますか?　たまに迷うけど

oh Good-bye days
いま　変わり始めた　胸の奥　alright
かっこよくない優しさがそばにあるから
～with you

できれば　悲しい　想いなんてしたくない
でもやってくるでしょ?
そのとき　笑顔で
Yeah hello!! my friend　なんてさ
言えたならいいのに…

同じ唄を　口ずさむ時
　そばにいて　I wish
かっこよくない優しさに会えてよかったよ

…Good-bye days
i will translate it soon..

thy moodless

haiz... life is so flushed up...

my dad is being more of a bastard than normal this few months. Come on, his knowledge of history is based on discovery channel and the latest history channel which history shows are like 5 years old *oh history history shows*... come on japan DID NOT go near alaska at all... it is just that the americans scared that they invaded that way...

he should know i will get out of his hand. I am not that cute little small boy that he used to play with. I have grown, i gained knowledge, i have my plans *which he destroyed*... COME ON I DUN live my life in his shadows. I DUN WANT TO FOLLOW HIS ORDERS. I am ME, myself, I. Not his son, his kid, his follower.

I have the right to do things my way. His way is old and not up to date. I dun want to be anti-social like him. I dun want to end up like him, a huge piece of fat that have friends that he either, dun like to hang too much or scared they say something about him as they are way richer and powerful.

Ya... i was to be a rich man son, but i dun give a shit of what happened. It happened way before i was born. But now, he is turning to be like his mom, senile and going mad. Mom and i knew it was going to happen since he was getting jumpy.... everything we say he will listen in. Scared we going to boycott him?. He is flushed up. i feel like moving his computer and put it in his bedroom. I am going to claim my study room as my bed room soon... i cannot take his attitude... i dun care if even if he is going to kill me. maybe it is better if i died. Their life will be much peaceful.

I just want to get away from his rule... i have the right to say your data is old and dun say i am arguing with you, when u are the one that dun want to take it as the truth.
Why should i give in to him?
why should i not argue for the truth?
why should i agree with the lies, with an idiot?
why should i listen to a person who had a girlfriend at my age?

come on, they both hanging out together at my age, but they are telling me NOT to get into one.. COME ON i got into 2 and they dun even know. I dun even know i am my dad's son. How can i be so skinny when he and my bro are so god damn fat. the only things that i have from my dad sides *which my mom's dad also had* are, bow legs and curly hair.

my brown hair was from my mom, so as my looks, my eyes, my eyelid, my med probs, my allergies, my low alcohol torrence levels. my fucking temple, my blood prb.

what else i want to state? I am like more from my mom then from my dad... maybe i should just get a DNA test when i am older... and see for myself...

-Little more than before [slip out]-

I don't know since when I changed to such a cold-hearted guy.
I have to warm this frozen icy lonely heart to thaw.
I like being wrapped with warmness more than anything else for sure.
I'm gonna make my coming days to be filled with laughter and joy.

I let myself down that I'm more cruel than I thought I would be.
I'm just a loser who ends up by caring for my soul.
I've become a man from a kid and now turn back to a kid again.
I can now show and give my love a little more than before.

Sorrow is what I hate but it's grown my sensations.
Regrets taught me how to make any hard decisions.
Peace is always by my side but I've never felt it once.
Love is not the word only for the sweet romance.

Well I'm scared, scared, scared, scared to death.
And I'm scared to keep on going on my way.
Well I'm scared, scared, scared, scared to death.
And I'll tell myself I'm special till the end.

Recalling my torn borken, aching heart of these long days.
And all the memories I wanted to forget for making leaps.
Recalling, aching, breaking, crying , making sure to me.
And I take all grin at my future on the way.

Sorrow is what I hate but it's grown my sensations.
Regrets taught me how to make any hard decisions.
Peace is always by my side but I've never felt it once.
Love is not the word only for the sweet romance.

Well I'm scared, scared, scared, scared to death.
And I'm scared to keep on going on my way.
Well I'm scared, scared, scared, scared to death.
And I'll tell myself I'm special till the end.

I've become a man from a kid and now turn back to a kid again.
I can now show and give my love a little more than before....

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i still miss you...

hating school...

i dunnoe, i just lost interest in going to school. it is like i am totally moodless to go. Is it due to i start to hate the classes, to the due i see no use of going? or is it my mind is somewhere else.

she dun read here anymore. i guess. but i miss her...

Full moon sways...
Gently in the night of one fine day
On my way...
Looking for a moment with my dear

Full moon waves.
Slowly on the surface of the lake
You were there...
Smilling in my arms for all those years

What a fool...
I don't know 'bout tomorrow...
What it's like to be
Ah~

I was fool,
Couldn't let myself to go
Even though I feel...
The end

Old love affair...
Floating like a bird resting her wings
You were there...
Smiling in my arms for all those years

What a fool...
I don't know 'bout tomorrow...
What it's like to be
Ah~

I was fool
couldn't let myself to go
Even though I feel...
The end

Full moon sways...
Gently in the night of one fine day
You are there
Smiling in my arms for all thoses years...

headache, toothache and a bowling league...

fuck it... i have to dig for my extra drugs again... this time the headache is caused by a toothache. which looks like coming from my wisdom tooth. I am supposed to detox the painkillers out of my system...

haiz, the pain is now 4 times as bad as thing morning, it is like someone is beating up my brains [ and jaw].how am i to bowl tonight at the league?????

//*oh ya it is 4th of july... so lets sing the US anthem...*//
kageshi hope u reading this, so happy 4th of july. happy birthday!

the fucked up moodless day.

Some days I feel like shit,
Some days I wanna quit, and just be normal for a bit,

i really wish i can just be a normal kid, have a normal life. but hell, i dun have one, but technically, it looks normal from the outside, i dun really excel at all. i am not an outstanding person. i look perfectly normal from the outside. but haiz... it is not normal.

when u have parents that dun like go for gathering, dun like to mix with people they dun know. you know that you dun have a normal life, come on i am 17, most parents dun mind the kid to have their own room, if there is a room in the house that is not that used. and my parents give me the most crap and shit reasons not to use my study room as my room, when most of the stuff in it are mine. okay i will state it here today, this is my say, i will turn that study room of mine in to my bed room by the end of this year, no matter what they say.

okay i am quite worked up on this crap cause of this morning and yesterday... being the target that gets blame / start the argument / topic of argument from my parents... i got worked up by it that i just stood up from the dinning table and had some fight with my dad....

come on dun say that i sleeping around, i am your freaking son. it is like saying that i am a gigolo.. i dun even have a girlfriend, like i can sleep around... girls like hot guys, i am a freaking geek, not handsome at all, i am not smart, i am not outstanding, i am, well perfectly average.

i really that bad in life,
1 girl dump me after a week, with the crappiest dump line i ever heard from anywhere....
another told me it depends....
another just rejected me and only contact me when she wants to go out or need help...
and one just did not gave a reason, an answer or reply, she just let go. block me on msn, i guess she would block my phone number is she know how to.... lucky i did not teach her how. I really thought we can last, but i guess it happened to fast....

i am those guys that tend to go for girls that i like, if i dun have the feeling, i am not interested in that girl. [ that is how i rejected 2]... maybe i think too much of love at first sight... i should move away from that idea...

well and someone have a great saying to me, " go and get a girlfriend.." halo ms, ain't you the perfect candidate? haiz if do read this, go and get a boyfriend, you got to learn not to toy with too many guys hearts, although the major one you toy with was that guy...

a relationship is not a one way street, it is a busy 4 lane expressway. after that girl, i should have known, but it was still one way, but the arrow was pointing to her. i fell for her but nothing much came back,except when she was down...

i still cannot forget... i cannot take alcohol as it affects my painkillers and and i get drunk too fast now, [ my alcohol torrence is getting lower to now, 1.5 cups of the tall sake cup]. it is screwed.

i just want to get over this... and listen to that someone, get a girlfriend.

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Yeah here we go for the hundredth time
Hand grenade pins in every line

Throw 'em up and let something shine
Going out of my fucking mind

Filthy mouth, no excuse
Find a new place to hang this noose

String me up from atop these roofs
Knot it tight so i won't get loose

Truth is you can stop and stare
Run myself out and no one cares

Dug the trench out laid down there
With a shovel up out of reach somewhere

Yeah, someone pour it in
Make it a dirt dance floor again

Say your prayers and stomp it out
When they bring that chorus in

[Chorus]
I bleed it out digging deeper
Just to throw it away

I bleed it out digging deeper
Just to throw it away

I bleed it out digging deeper
Just to throw it away

Just to throw it away
Just to throw it away

I bleed it out
[End Chorus]

Go stop the show
Choppy words and a sloppy flow

Shotgun opera lock and load
Cock it back and then watch it go

Mama help me I've been cursed
Death is rolling in every verse

Candy paint on his brand new hearse
Can't contain him he knows he works

Fuck this hurts I won't lie
Doesn't matter how hard I try

Half the words don't mean a thing
And I know that I wont be satisfied

So why try ignoring him
Make it a dirt dance floor again

Say your prayers and stomp it out
When they bring that chorus in

[Chorus]
I bleed it out digging deeper
Just to throw it away

I bleed it out digging deeper
Just to throw it away

I bleed it out digging deeper
Just to throw it away

Just to throw it away
Just to throw it away

I bleed it out

I've opened up these scars
I'll make you face this

I pull myself apart
I'll make you, face, this, now!!!!

[Chorus]
I bleed it out digging deeper
Just to throw it away

I bleed it out digging deeper
Just to throw it away

I bleed it out digging deeper
Just to throw it away

Just to throw it away
Just to throw it away

I bleed it out digging deeper
Just to throw it away

I bleed it out digging deeper
Just to throw it away

I bleed it out digging deeper
Just to throw it away

Just to throw it away
Just to throw it away

I bleed it out
I bleed it out
I bleed it out
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moodless friday...

okay fine,it is good friday not moodless friday. Although it was moodless for me. Being forced to wake up to go to club cause my parents invited my relatives. haiz... so i was forced to go there and do nothing.
First they dun allow me to go and bowl then they wanted me to go to the gym. come on i was not wearing the freaking right shoes, so how to go to the gym? haiz so in the end, i end up somehow... pissed off and in the bowling alley...

man... more i look at my life, more i realized that they are the ones holding me back... from the injured mouth of my dad, " i dun like to mix around."
what fuck... u dun want to join the foursome bowling league cause that reason. come on dun give that type of shitty reason. if i take that into your personality, i know why you rather me to stay at home than to go out.

come on i am not you!! why do i have to listen to u? why the hell you complain of my friends when u never meet any of them before? why the hell you think they are bad hats when they are not? and y the hell u think i got a girlfriend and have done it? why the fuck u think that way? you are my dad but hell with your ideas, your thinking, your vision...


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SUPER SHOOTER
RIP SLYME

Now listen, Yo!
People put your guns up
mazu ore ga Run dat
[ I'm going first Run dat]
hashiri mawatte yatsura wo
[ Running around and shooting them] Gun shot!! G
Brand new sound sou still survival
[ Brand new sound so still survivor]
Here come some boy kono sekai ni ikirou
[ Here come some boy so introduction him to the world]

chiryoku tairyoku to un ga mau ze! furoo
[ my mind, my strength and my luck whirling! Flowing]
fukuranda atama n naka wa zakku bara n na n da!
[ My head is overwhelmed, it seem is going empty! ]
sabanna de banna ni wanpan kantan nokku auto kan kan kan
[ Full of boundaries in the savanna, an easy K.O. bang! bang! bang!]
One time for your mind iki nuke
[ One time for your mind to surivive ]
Around the world

tsukimatou no sa itsu no itami mo
[hang on the wounds still soring in pain.]
kedakai kami no mawari mo ima kari mono
[ we are the borrowed items of a noble god]
makareta tane mo hana sakeba dare no?
[ If a seed is sown, who owns the flower that has just bloomed?]
ikite uchi komu shinnen no ya wo
[ live and introduce the arrow of faith] More more more...

it's sucky yes like my life!
tachi na saa[ Get up and] Don't give up the fight
ima, sou kono shunkan mo,[ This is the right time so,] Die!
die! die! die!

Big shooter iki isoide blazing
[ Big shooter living fast and Blazing.]
Beat you up kiri hiraite break
[ Beat you up, you need like a Break.]
Shot shooter iki isoida crazy
[Shot shooter you lived fast and crazy.]
shoujun au shikin kyori de break!
[ Set and shoot you need like a BREAK!]

Big shooter iki isoide blazing
[ Big shooter living fast and Blazing.]
Beat you up kiri hiraite break
[ Beat you up, you need like a Break.]
Shot shooter iki isoida crazy
[Shot shooter you lived fast and crazy.]
shoujun au shikin kyori de break!
[ Set and shoot you need like a BREAK!]

----------------end of anime version----------

Player one start

Link (link) up (up) Super gun shooter
No boy caan test we hottonesu sa Light up!!
Free(free) dom(dom) hi kureru mae ga piiku
Oh please tatakaeba piisu?
Swing (swing) chop (chop) nuki na gun clap
mashita de yurase daichi wa dansaburu
Rock (rock) your (your) body (body moving)
asa made Grooving sokkou Shooting
Un(un) un(un) un(un) un(un)
Un(un) un(un) un(un) un(un)

We gonna shoot sema na Crew
yatsu ga kuru Advance!! totte sukuramu

We gonna shoot sema na Crew
yatsu ga kuru Advance!! totte sukuramu

iku (iku) saki (saki) zenbu (zenbu) kurasshu (kurasshu)
kurasshu (kurasshu)

iku (iku) saki (saki) zenbu (zenbu) kurasshu (kurasshu)
kurasshu (kurasshu)

Player two start

Hey Coming up kami no mizo shiru
inori na shikkari rinkai shinto kokoro
hitori kiri kiri hiraku Killer
iki nokoru tame ni nigiru torigaa
Set up shita furumetaru jaketto
tenpo appu shitette Enter the round 2
atarashii sekai e Brand new
fuan to juu Two hand shooter
shintetsu shite misosuri undou kiri kaesu karada jutsu juukundoo

undoukai ja nai akai chi ga nagareru
shiroi hata agete mo tomaranai de
pointo kasan kasoku suru Murder
Can't get any harder kono karada bara bara na n no wa
kore kara da Let's continued mada mada

Player three start

hora Start take off
yatsu wa tooku ni Public enemy
kokoro no moya fuan no kemuri ni makarezu
mazu wa faburiizu
kyou genzai niou fuman waga mama dake no puran
atama no naka ni iganda furisubii
todokazu shinnen ga buraan
sairen nari hibiku atama no naka de
dare mo ga matte ita ze kibou kimi ga hiiroo sa
makeru to omotte tattatteta tte
ottatteta tte toraero Rook on
sakeru koto sae sakaratte.

Player four Start

Yo! sasurai no Gunner kokou no Hunter
Continue saa tsugi wa dare da omae no ban da
S.O.S. chekku to tesuto
boku, bootto tsuttattereba sadon desu
naisu attakku naisu difensu
hitsuyou na no wa sou savaibaru no sensu
ikiro ikiro Here we go, here we go
hai sukoa meiku de omae ga Hero

Player five Start

Big shooter iki isoide blazing
Beat you up kiri hiraite break
Shot shooter iki isoida crazy
shoujun au shikin kyori de break

Big shooter iki isoide blazing
Beat you up kiri hiraite break
Shot shooter iki isoida crazy
shoujun au shikin kyori de break