I want, but i can't but i want.....

Finally after 1 year of waiting for all the reports to settle, i finally got my compensation pay out. it was more than i expected it to be, but well it will not cover the for all the things i really want.

Item 1: A new PC...

Actually i have just ordered the following parts. now all i need is to pay up and collect them:

- Z77 sabertooth with i7 3770k
- 16 gb RAM
- ATi 7850OC 2gb gfx.
- 256GB SSD
- 2x 2 TB WD Red for my NAS
- cosair H100 cooling. ( man amazon is way freaking cheap(er).)

amazingly these parts are not cheap at all... lucky i have the casing, screen and sound system standby lol.

item 2:

(photo from kenrockwell.com)

A Second hand Leica M6. It is really my dream camera. but at first i thought a Voigtlander 35mm/f1.4 Nokton for starter, but well if i could... then LEICA SUMMILUX-M 50mm f/1.4 ASPH.. ( I WISH)

One year on....

1 year ago, at this timing I left the land of the rising sun on a very wet night. Even thought I felt Tokyo was not that long ago, time really went by quite fast for the past 1 year. ( okay it felt damn long especially when I am in Tekong, twice some more)  Right after that long 12 days in Tokyo. I had 48hours to prep myself for the longest waste of my life. National service. Not that I am against it but I felt that I can put my life into a better use than me training my not so physically fit body.

So during the past year many things had changed:
 I had got into a relationship,
then went to get injured in Tekong.
 Kena out of course from Tekong,
got horribly frustrated,
then gotten out of  the relationship.
Became even more horribly frustrated with myself and super emotional.
 Went back to Tekong again.
Shoulder weaken even more.
Became quite of a hermit.
Stop being interesting.
Watching more drama than animes
Realised my Life may end up worse than Ted.
Lost my creative touch
Rotting on 9gag
My SLR died, D300s is kinda rotting away. LC-A+ filled with a film that only managed to move 3 frames a week.
Getting really emotional over small things.
And diablo 3 maybe the only thing I do when I get home.

POC LOH!!!

FINALLY!. i am not a recruit any more!.

Been to 2 BMT and back, best thing both in Rocky Hill, far from the main camp on tekong. But what ever it is, i can grow my hair again!... now to wait for ORD!

Messy room

Even when i am stuck in camp for the weekdays. My room is still as messy as ever.

This week will be my final [and it better be the last] week in tekong. YES it is FINALLY nearly over. not National Service but at least after this I will not be stuck on a island far from civilization where the only connection out is my handphone(which is dying). Back to usual blogging and tweet spams after Good Friday.

Now how should i spend my good friday weekend, anyone wants any Photoshoots?

Missing life

Going back to Tekong Is really demoralizing.

Going back to Tekong on a Friday night is even more demoralizing...

I am missing the outside world once again, but then what is it so difference between me being stuck in the DVFX lab and in an army camp? I was missing my life too back then when I had to camp day after days and burn my weekend on my Mac just to do work.

The army is just boring and due to the fact I am so disconnected from the net, I guess I that y I felt I really missing my life...

I am not really a outgoing person, and ain't really social able ( offline or online )... So ya... There goes my life. If is not for school and work, I doubt I will have friends outside that circle. ( okay cosplay is another thing..)

So well I have to end this post as I am reaching the ferry terminal to go back to Tekong to burn my long weekend off. But really 1 more mth left before I go back to unit. I guess I just have to tahan.

YO dude, I need some cash

$420 a month minus $20 insurance... and about $100 on transport. tell me how to survive? and i am only earning that amount for the next 2 years as i will be a Recruit for life lol..

damn... i wish i was working instead of serving the country.

In pain.

Okay no photos coz I am blogging from tekong. It been awhile since I last posted anything here, well a lot of shit/ pain happened but well I kinda expected this to happened to me during this 2 years.

-Skip this post if u dun want to read my bitching. And ah new Photos will be up this weekend -

Well for those that have not been followin me on twitter ( which amazingly I am able to update it) I been diagnosied with a rotoary cuff injury (supraspinatus tendiopathy) on my right shoulder and It seems I torn a tendon. And the fucked up thing, it was due to push up...

Not to mention, I am here in tekong (BMT) for 8 weeks and I injuried myself like in the 2nd week. And from what it seems I will have to recourse BMT in 6 months or so after this tear heal.

Is it fair?, nope, come on I was obviously an unfit soldier thrown into PES B and gotten heat cramps in the first 2 weeks and torn a tendon. What else I need to get for them to realise that there is something wrong with me?

So basically for the last 6 weeks and for the coming 40 plus days I am excused doing nearly everything and wasting my life in tekong. And before this I only went to A&E like once for my stomach infection...

really I never went to the hospital so many times in a month.
Never had 3 different injections in a span of 3 days...
Had like 2 times the number of x-rays that I had my entire life. Or even an ultra sound scan to find that I have a hole in my shoulder...
Oh ya not to mention the amount of painkillers I am on.

Thank goodness, SAF is paying every cent or not I really wonder why the hell am I risking my life for this army. Not that I hate singapore it is just that I am not built to be a soldier. I can help in other ways but not in runnin up and down hills as a riflemen.

Well I better stop bitching and go back filling in my injury report forms which is made so people like me can't filled it in or so SAF will not need to do a single pay out to "minor" cases like mine, they got to be more worried of the SCT that had a 40mm exploded or the other SCT that died in the west.

Who really cares of the recruits at tekong? Well not the MO, I meant look at the flu case...