haiz i suay lah...
Sunday, 15 July 2007
Friday, 13 July 2007
painkillers...
if any of u do not know, I hate friday the 13th[ mainly it is the week leading up to it...]
haiz it is also the 13th week that i am on painkillers since.In total, i have tried 4 different types...
lets see, the first one.it messed up my life as it was too strong and gives me memories blank periods which make me unable to remember a crap and i think i was unstable during those periods, but i will never know as she will not tell me..
*doctor did not tell me about those effects till i ask him if it will affect my memories during class*
that made him change my meds to the second type... a smaller dose [ in a single pill] but i was told to take 2 if my head hurts like mad. no memory loss [ i think] but it made me unstable [emotionally and in the mental state], plus what happened after that last friday the 13th...
after hearing the complains from my mom,
he switch it to a even smaller dose that temp kill the pain [ 2 -4 hrs]
that one was anti-depression too i guess as i was more stable and can think straight with it. without it i will go high... [nuts and etc]
but i have to stop that one as last thursday, after seeing the dentist due to a toothache, the dentist gave me a damn powerful painkiller for my headache and tooth pain. [ but the side effect was that it cause a major pain right after taking then i dun feel a thing.] it is also another anti-depression i think...
well the reason i am on this new one is that it looks like i have a wisdom tooth problem.if i am not able to pay for the op for it, i will have to go on to long term painkillers that may damage my health, body and liver and nerves....
haiz mess up life... well i should be used to this... been taking drugs from the age of 4. [ maybe earlier cause i only have rough memories from that age only]... haiz... weaking. that is what i am...
i am on polaramine for long term since the 1st time taking it..
danzen is another long term on off drug.
panado and all the fever meds are another on off drugs...
i still got some anti-depression meds from sec 1 to 3...
dun need to say about painkillers
still got others...
afew for my breathing problems if it happen again... [4, 8, 12 years old that time, so the next was to be at 16 years old, but it did not, so it may happen this year]
afew for my crazy ulcer outbreaks that make me look like a crazy person.... [ 2, 10, 16, 17 but treated early so the outbreak did not happened [about 16 weeks ago] ]
still got 2 for my skin treatment... [ but it seems i can stop eatting them]...
mhh... and my mom blame this on herself cause i was fed with homos when i was in her... [which where to make sure i survive through the 9 mths]
i think soon i need some sleeping pills... cannot sleep well...
haiz it is also the 13th week that i am on painkillers since.In total, i have tried 4 different types...
lets see, the first one.it messed up my life as it was too strong and gives me memories blank periods which make me unable to remember a crap and i think i was unstable during those periods, but i will never know as she will not tell me..
*doctor did not tell me about those effects till i ask him if it will affect my memories during class*
that made him change my meds to the second type... a smaller dose [ in a single pill] but i was told to take 2 if my head hurts like mad. no memory loss [ i think] but it made me unstable [emotionally and in the mental state], plus what happened after that last friday the 13th...
after hearing the complains from my mom,
he switch it to a even smaller dose that temp kill the pain [ 2 -4 hrs]
that one was anti-depression too i guess as i was more stable and can think straight with it. without it i will go high... [nuts and etc]
but i have to stop that one as last thursday, after seeing the dentist due to a toothache, the dentist gave me a damn powerful painkiller for my headache and tooth pain. [ but the side effect was that it cause a major pain right after taking then i dun feel a thing.] it is also another anti-depression i think...
well the reason i am on this new one is that it looks like i have a wisdom tooth problem.if i am not able to pay for the op for it, i will have to go on to long term painkillers that may damage my health, body and liver and nerves....
haiz mess up life... well i should be used to this... been taking drugs from the age of 4. [ maybe earlier cause i only have rough memories from that age only]... haiz... weaking. that is what i am...
i am on polaramine for long term since the 1st time taking it..
danzen is another long term on off drug.
panado and all the fever meds are another on off drugs...
i still got some anti-depression meds from sec 1 to 3...
dun need to say about painkillers
still got others...
afew for my breathing problems if it happen again... [4, 8, 12 years old that time, so the next was to be at 16 years old, but it did not, so it may happen this year]
afew for my crazy ulcer outbreaks that make me look like a crazy person.... [ 2, 10, 16, 17 but treated early so the outbreak did not happened [about 16 weeks ago] ]
still got 2 for my skin treatment... [ but it seems i can stop eatting them]...
mhh... and my mom blame this on herself cause i was fed with homos when i was in her... [which where to make sure i survive through the 9 mths]
i think soon i need some sleeping pills... cannot sleep well...
Monday, 9 July 2007
cosfest...
was supposed to blog this on sat night, but due to my fucking AMP report and some photos editing, i did not..
okay one thing about cosfest on saturday was that, it was not cosfest... it was tanjong pagar GRC festa cum samba dance competition cum cosfest. Due to MM Lee appearance, there were x-ray scanners and metal detectors but it seems that a swiss army knife in my bag as not an item of interest for the cops...
well that is singapore for you. well the joke was that they scared the props can kill... [ duh] but most of the props cannot fit into the scanners... and the cops have to stick a ugly blue sticker on the props [ which damages the props] haiz...
well if i go into a time line,
4pm: queue up to enter the lock down area.
4.05pm: got into the lock down area [ the uncle in front of me was a film cam user and got 2 and was asking alot of crap cause the cops were forcing him to put his cam in to the x-ray scanner...]
4.06pm: saw the guard. [ he was a post-ww2 east german soldier]
then the blah blah take take till like 7pm
7pm: turtle called then went to dhoby for ramen.
8.15pm:enter the ramen shop
9pm: finished and walk around daiso, got $2 worth of sandpaper
** if u need sandpaper go to daiso, for $2 u can get 1200 grid to 60 grid!!!!**
9.15pm: walked to carfour coz james want that wasbi seaweed...
dun have, gone head to mrt,
9.45pm: x-zone at dhoby, but the para machine was queued...
9.50pm: head to Toa payoh.
10.15pm: end up at x-zone in TP, turtle para-ing, i grab a chair and getting moodless/ and down...
10.30pm: head back to TP interchange and grab a bus back home...
10.55pm: turn on my laptop, gets more moodless when open my project
11.55pm: too moodless to do the project edit 5 pics and upload to sgcafe.
12plus am: kage reached home after her 10.30 movie of transformers. Called her...
3.30plus am: put down the phone.
4.18am: total words typed in to my project, 1 short paragraph.
4.30am: went to sleep.
mh... continue!
2.30pm: woke up,
5.30pm: started rushing my amp project [7hrs 30 to dateline...]
9.30pm: dinner, finished 5 pages [2hrs 30 to dateline..]
11.45pm: finished the work [15mins left!!!]
11.50pm: finally log in to mel [9mins plus left]
11.54pm: mel lagging, finally got to the submission page [5mins!!!]
11.58pm: upload to the submission page done [1min!!!]
11.59pm: finally say that i submitted it.
what the flush... it took me 15 mins to do some thing that takes me 2 mins in school...
okay some pics.
the east german NCO
haruhi suzumiya, had to request for this pose.
one of the 3 entrance to enter...
cosplayers with prop are only allowed to enter by this one
brought some d.gray man stickers from this booth...
peggy as akito from air gear, the character is actually a bishi guy, why is he i a dress? read the air gear chapter when they are in kyoto...
okay one thing about cosfest on saturday was that, it was not cosfest... it was tanjong pagar GRC festa cum samba dance competition cum cosfest. Due to MM Lee appearance, there were x-ray scanners and metal detectors but it seems that a swiss army knife in my bag as not an item of interest for the cops...
well that is singapore for you. well the joke was that they scared the props can kill... [ duh] but most of the props cannot fit into the scanners... and the cops have to stick a ugly blue sticker on the props [ which damages the props] haiz...
well if i go into a time line,
4pm: queue up to enter the lock down area.
4.05pm: got into the lock down area [ the uncle in front of me was a film cam user and got 2 and was asking alot of crap cause the cops were forcing him to put his cam in to the x-ray scanner...]
4.06pm: saw the guard. [ he was a post-ww2 east german soldier]
then the blah blah take take till like 7pm
7pm: turtle called then went to dhoby for ramen.
8.15pm:enter the ramen shop
9pm: finished and walk around daiso, got $2 worth of sandpaper
** if u need sandpaper go to daiso, for $2 u can get 1200 grid to 60 grid!!!!**
9.15pm: walked to carfour coz james want that wasbi seaweed...
dun have, gone head to mrt,
9.45pm: x-zone at dhoby, but the para machine was queued...
9.50pm: head to Toa payoh.
10.15pm: end up at x-zone in TP, turtle para-ing, i grab a chair and getting moodless/ and down...
10.30pm: head back to TP interchange and grab a bus back home...
10.55pm: turn on my laptop, gets more moodless when open my project
11.55pm: too moodless to do the project edit 5 pics and upload to sgcafe.
12plus am: kage reached home after her 10.30 movie of transformers. Called her...
3.30plus am: put down the phone.
4.18am: total words typed in to my project, 1 short paragraph.
4.30am: went to sleep.
mh... continue!
2.30pm: woke up,
5.30pm: started rushing my amp project [7hrs 30 to dateline...]
9.30pm: dinner, finished 5 pages [2hrs 30 to dateline..]
11.45pm: finished the work [15mins left!!!]
11.50pm: finally log in to mel [9mins plus left]
11.54pm: mel lagging, finally got to the submission page [5mins!!!]
11.58pm: upload to the submission page done [1min!!!]
11.59pm: finally say that i submitted it.
what the flush... it took me 15 mins to do some thing that takes me 2 mins in school...
okay some pics.
the east german NCO
haruhi suzumiya, had to request for this pose.
one of the 3 entrance to enter... cosplayers with prop are only allowed to enter by this one
brought some d.gray man stickers from this booth...
peggy as akito from air gear, the character is actually a bishi guy, why is he i a dress? read the air gear chapter when they are in kyoto...
Saturday, 7 July 2007
nana day....
in 46 hours i will be dead as my AMP written report is not done yet...
in 13 hours i will be at cosfest...
in 10 hours i will be awake...
in 4 hours i will be sleeping
in 1 hour i will be doing my AMP report.
right now, i am down, moodless again...
haiz... the thoughts are going through my heads again, there is nothing to worry about... she will avoid me like i avoid/cannot see her. she will confirm will not pose for a shot later today, why am i worried about it??? there is nothing to be scared of but thoughts are going wild inside. *could it be my painkillers??*
in 13 hours i will be at cosfest...
in 10 hours i will be awake...
in 4 hours i will be sleeping
in 1 hour i will be doing my AMP report.
right now, i am down, moodless again...
haiz... the thoughts are going through my heads again, there is nothing to worry about... she will avoid me like i avoid/cannot see her. she will confirm will not pose for a shot later today, why am i worried about it??? there is nothing to be scared of but thoughts are going wild inside. *could it be my painkillers??*
Wednesday, 4 July 2007
headache, toothache and a bowling league...
fuck it... i have to dig for my extra drugs again... this time the headache is caused by a toothache. which looks like coming from my wisdom tooth. I am supposed to detox the painkillers out of my system...
haiz, the pain is now 4 times as bad as thing morning, it is like someone is beating up my brains [ and jaw].how am i to bowl tonight at the league?????
//*oh ya it is 4th of july... so lets sing the US anthem...
*//
kageshi hope u reading this, so happy 4th of july. happy birthday!
haiz, the pain is now 4 times as bad as thing morning, it is like someone is beating up my brains [ and jaw].how am i to bowl tonight at the league?????
//*oh ya it is 4th of july... so lets sing the US anthem...
*//kageshi hope u reading this, so happy 4th of july. happy birthday!
Tuesday, 3 July 2007
manga, talks, class, projects and manga
okay for those that wonder that does that title mean, it has no meaning... i will take it down into parts..
firstly, manga. THIS IS WHAT I WAS DOING SINCE LAST WEEK IN CLASS!!! reading manga online as:
1. i can finish the autocad stuff fast...
2. c-programming is chicken feet
3. i am surfing the net during TF
4. AMP is a die die module
5. maths is sec 3/4 add/e maths... got enough time to do and read...
what else?i am also bored... somehow i lost the will to study hard, i just want to read manga, watch anime, take photos and play 2142...
next word, talks... over this few days i have the longest few talks with ppl on the phone.... [ usually only one or 2 in a week, but this time it is like 6]
i am fine with it,but i realised.it is draining me.[those that called me, dun blame yourself, it is my bad here] i am not as strong as i am or what u see.i am a weaking. i am gas can, u can pump more air inside, it will compress, but one day, the thin alu can will burst open. some have seen it happen, but this time no one slowly releasing the pressure.
this one is simple, class = sleeping time... [was awake for autocad due to manga, that is the same for tf today, but i slept for like 30mins in japanese]
projects, i am screwed okay. i got 2 major projects due on sunday 080707 2359... i am screwed as,
for the the amp one, i have not really started...
c programming, i dunnoe if he is the right guy to link up with. i need a prefect score for my c-programming...
there are still side line projects like my IS project, cosfest...
and back to manga... air gear, beck, vk, deathnote... heck go and read them.
firstly, manga. THIS IS WHAT I WAS DOING SINCE LAST WEEK IN CLASS!!! reading manga online as:
1. i can finish the autocad stuff fast...
2. c-programming is chicken feet
3. i am surfing the net during TF
4. AMP is a die die module
5. maths is sec 3/4 add/e maths... got enough time to do and read...
what else?i am also bored... somehow i lost the will to study hard, i just want to read manga, watch anime, take photos and play 2142...
next word, talks... over this few days i have the longest few talks with ppl on the phone.... [ usually only one or 2 in a week, but this time it is like 6]
i am fine with it,but i realised.it is draining me.[those that called me, dun blame yourself, it is my bad here] i am not as strong as i am or what u see.i am a weaking. i am gas can, u can pump more air inside, it will compress, but one day, the thin alu can will burst open. some have seen it happen, but this time no one slowly releasing the pressure.
this one is simple, class = sleeping time... [was awake for autocad due to manga, that is the same for tf today, but i slept for like 30mins in japanese]
projects, i am screwed okay. i got 2 major projects due on sunday 080707 2359... i am screwed as,
for the the amp one, i have not really started...
c programming, i dunnoe if he is the right guy to link up with. i need a prefect score for my c-programming...
there are still side line projects like my IS project, cosfest...
and back to manga... air gear, beck, vk, deathnote... heck go and read them.
Monday, 2 July 2007
huh?
okay i found a tab on my firefox showing the posting screen, i am not sure when i turn it to here, so heck, i got nothing to blog, go to sleep.
Sunday, 1 July 2007
the 12ed change
i have finished designing the 12 blogskin for my blog... it seems okay, i just now need to do some extra coding later, since i did this for the last 6hours plus. okay
good morning world, i am going to sleep.
good morning world, i am going to sleep.
down...
all around me... i see are pairs... pairs of everything...
new blog skin in 5 hours, please stand by...
new blog skin in 5 hours, please stand by...
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