happy new year folks!!

and part 2 is coming up...

mhh... where did i stop at?

okay..

20th Dec:Saturday [at CF day 1]

mhh amazing... while being in the queue to go into the hall. Sean and me met a Dragoon20005... a malaysian clone of dragoon... it was scary... but one thing, the CF comn really know how to make the crowd wow up for the event... something that you dun see in sg.

First thing what all otaku and art lovers should do when you get into an convention.
Buy doujishi!... and artworks... unlike japan, popular and good ones run out within like 2hrs. Spent like RM80 on goods... well at least it is cheaper than back home.

once the shopping is done. it was back to shooting. if you want to see the pics they are on sgcafe... oh well stayed till 5 plus then headed back to the hotel... and well slept till like 9.30 and realised... there are 24 hrs Mcd within 100metres of the hotel and is just across the street for both.

and once again... mcd in malaysia is small... double beef long burger [ the ones we used to had during CNY in sg but now it is double fish]... well for RM18... it is still SMALL.. but they had curvy fries.

21th Dec:Saturday [CF day 12]

mhh *need sleep again*

so happy new year!

Back From the headaches...

I know, i am late to say this but merry xmas to all... and i was back for 3 days liao lah...

mhh let me do a short write up about it...

19th Dec:Friday [before going off]

some how, i amazingly woke up at like 2pm to rush to do some school and admin crap, then to Ruby to process my films, and then managed to get home for dinner and rush pack my bag before rushing down again to harbourfront to catch the 11.30 aeroline bus to KL.

My dad was like why harbourfront seh...
anyway, met sean and garion there and well it was going to be a 5hrs trip north...



20th Dec:Saturday [on the bus]

this was still in SG... i think we were on AYE... reached Tuas check point at 12am and well there was a queue of coaches going in. Sean was bored and as the lady that gave us extra white card, he started filling the forms...

konata goes to CF... lolz... well passing tuas check point was fast for me as i only needed my finger, but i was amazed by the number of singaporean using their NORMAL/PAPER passport on the automated one which needed the new plastic one...

Auntie: *in stuck at the gate for awhile* "this system so lousy, why cannot work one?"
Me: *put passport into scanner* look at her...
*gate opens*
Me: "excuse me, i think u need to go to the queue one, coz your passport is the paper one."
Auntie: *stares*
Me: * go in and scan thumb*
Auntie: *still trying.*
Me: *international space...*

man... i nicely tell her she dun believe...
we cleared the malaysian custom after 1am then it was all black to KL.
I know i was the 1st few up as we entered E2's last toll at KL... was 4am... and amazingly... KL looks like well.. nice to shoot at night..

it stopped at citus hotel and that is when garion and us part ways. he said he was staying with some fren's place or something... for me and sean we headed to ancasa hotel, where most of the singaporean cosplayers were...


the amazing part was that we ain't the only singaporeans or travelling arriving that early to try to check in... but well no room till 10am... in some hope that we can drop off our bags at least in lenne's room, we spammed sms and calls to no avail... and the funny part was that they just got back from clubbing at 4am too... O.o... oh well i was suay lolz...

well trying to sleep but ended up taking pics till 7am...





at 7... we cannot tahan liao so we drop our luggage with the hotel and took a cab to the old KL railway station to book the coach tickets back to sg...

about it, NiCE coach from KL to SG, buy in SG is SGD 58.... buy in KL is RM 88. the exchange rates i got was SGD1 = RM 2.37.... so actually i was going to get con to get a ticket that is twice the price in singapore... after that it was a RM20 ride to sunway...and we ended up to be like the 1st singaporean at CF so early that the staff was like are u booth owners or helper???

ended up eating at Mcd at 8.30am and realised that as the stuff are 75% of the price back here, the meat to pancake to drinks are has to be 25% smaller. and the sugar is also not as sweet as the packets here...

went back up and found some familiar faces.... shiro,lenneth, kanasai with some singaporeans there...

they could go in earlier as they had booth owner passes... so then another long way for ticketing to open at 9.30, then for door to open at 10.30am...

okay i will post part 2 when i wake up... abit tired now...

nights

after EOY report...

actually go and read sgcafe for that.

well with eoy over, and CF is coming up... i wonder should i cosplay at CF or just go as an photographer

since people think i am dead

i will post...

but really i have some stuff due on wednesday,
locpro test at 4pm.
writcomn test on thursday
and locpro video review after it.

Oh well i did not shoot it... only helped in the 1st one.

what other things to say?

mhh EOY is this weekend.
but my jacket is not done yet...
I dunnoe if my pants can go with it
and i having issues to fix my mask.

kage should be coming over on friday.
so as the scouts , but they say it will be at late in the night.
and i HAVE to collect my passport...
then 9am to expo...

mhh then i am leaving for KL on the 19th for CF.
and back by the 23rd, but heck i should be online... coz my mac is going with me. -.-


okay time to listen to writcom again.. -.-

To that random poster galilea on my cbox

Hi Galilea,

Thank you for your keen interest in me *like really*. as from a google serach *as i find this totally funny* your hotmail account is not used on any sites and your name seem to get hits on google as an mexican actress [ imdb link here -> www.imdb.com/name/nm0600076/ ] ya... so as it looks like... i think you are just a random person *idiot* looking for the wrong guys coz this type of adverting yourself is totally stupid!!!. If you are really a singaporean and FEMALE, all the well please post again then i know you are trully interested...

Regards
Togusa...







LOLZ!!!!!!!!! man the things people do to find love...
come on...
get a life...
meeting guys online this way = you are going to get screwed...
but well it is the same as meeting idiots in clubs for one night stands...
as it looks like... if the girl is really a real girl in sg and cute... she will not need to do this as come on guys will go after her...

oh well back to normal blogging in the next post... lazy to do editing for this one

where are the drinks when i need them...

i want my vodka....

why the fuck no one bothers?
stupid life...

do i really need a break?

what am i running away from?

is it school?
is it work?
is it my family?
is it the people i know?
is it my friends?

wait what friends? thanks for the comments in the tag box,
but some people i barely know in my life or even fucking disturbed my life still have kicks to call me their friend... i am sorry but really mostly you guys are just acquaintances that i met in my life...
really just look at my msn list i have like nearly 300 contacts and well only 1 or 2 bother to talk to me. and come on if you really did care, won't u call for a chat or msn me instead of leaving a comment here and only tag again once i blog again..

and ya even that, why should u even bother doing that to me ,when me, myself do not even contact you and talk to you.

At the end, i realised. some of these frens, when they are down or in need of help, i somehow end up by their side.But at the end of the day, when they managed to get their girl/boyfriends. they run off, not bothering to give a shit...

well life have to go on. We meet new people and forget old ones. so much for 5 cm per second...

so what am i really running away from?
i dunnoe...

i need to get a life...

sleeping to 3pm on a cold day...
not doing any work except my school stuff...
staying at home coz i dun have anyone to go out with...

man what bullshit life i have...

and she bloody lie to me again... -.-...

portfoilo?

http://moodlessdays.carbonmade.com/

carbonmade.com, it is a simple cool portfoilo site. 35 photos and 5 projects [categories] for free, i will not mind using it to show case my maya renders and photography…

i am that nice...

really what vic randomly said to me on thursday, stuck me in the head...

"togu, you are too nice that you dun have a backbone..."

after today, i think it is really true... which guy rush home and blog the shit that happened just moments before? one with no backbone does that i guess...

haiz...

after like 3 years of knowing her... asking her out like 4 times before... and letting her get a boyfriend. I think i am way too nice to her. I used to be like by her side when she need me, when she dump her ex, did her props. and yet she dun see the kindest or give any thing in return... at first i am okay with it, but now i think about it, i am wasting my life on her.

She was the one that made me think twice of another girl that i liked... yet she never think twice of dating that idiot jock which totally not her type... now again... she has fallen for the sweet things again on another guy, interlocking their arms together walking as i am behind being forced to see this parade...

The guy popped out of no where... and ya, i was with her shopping for her materials. why it is the guys that randomly appeared in her life that she is interested in? although she can tell me she is not interested in him... your body language says another thing... it is like that time you are with the jock... you can say on msn that will never go out with him, but on the same day you agreed to his proposal...

ailing... at times, i really have no idea what are you thinking at times... it is not that you are random... it is that you really having some personality issues... so much for a girl i liked...

life... and why...

some knew that when i blog alot, it meant that i had no one to talk about my issues...

well maybe..

had a small meet up for lunch with some of my old scouts buddies. Had ichiban as yj had an $80 voucher *and it was a lunch for his birthday* well ya and we thought we under-budget but ended up $8 bucks over...

well $2 bucks for One gaint plate of raw fish... well it is worth!... spent $10 at the arcade at dhoby with them wasted one game of para due to wrong settings

had a fun time... but then it is back to life again...

once again i wonder... why do nice guys finish last? it is me or are girls blind and go for bastards and assholes... then when they were dumped... they come complaining why are there no nice guys in the world when the guy they complaining to, just canceled all plans coz the girls sent an emo message, and come rushing to their side...

yet at the end of the day... they are so blind and dun see the kindness the guy showed and the girl ended up with another ass..

haiz life... i dun think i can be nice anymore... it is killing my heart...

this is how i work...

that is my bed, that is my dad's old drawing board and that is the only lamp i have left... damn life...

what happens when you locked the whole family up?

well i was told to lock up the 2nd floor when i left for school this morning. i was expecting my dad to have the key, but no...
no one had the key....

gg... so after picking the lock for 30mins, my dad had a great plan, i was to climb up the neighbouring wall,then put a ladder there, and climb up it with little stability, slide on a pillar to the 1st level's roof. then slowly walk over it to my bro's room window and force open it then climb into it and stepped on to my old laptop.... -.-

gg right, it took me like 2 mins to get in by the window.... wasted 30mins of doing the old fashion lock picking -.-...

am i alone?

when i look around... y do i feel that i am alone, it is like everyone else have someone else, but no one is there for me... sometimes i wonder, do i really have friends or are some just "friends" or is it me, myself avoiding them...

i dunnoe what is going on... i dunnoe y do feel so down, but i dunnoe why am i so alone, when i am surrounded by people everyday...

i need a break..

it is not even the second week of school, and i am starting to break down...

this kinda of happened at the start of every school term i had since primary school...
after spending weeks alone during the holidays, going back to a class is so unreal. I felt that i am using a different face and personality when i am in school or outside and it is tiring me out fast...

maybe what hector said to me last sem during the one on one discussion section was true... I dun belong anywhere, i create a persona to fit in. that why no 2 different groups of people i know can match up with the other group.

Cosplayers are still weird to many, Including photographers...
Some groups of photographers i know dun match up with other photographers i know...
My classmates in secondary school are different to the people i know in robotics
and my scouts buddies never understand view on robotics, photography and cosplay...

he kinda of guessed that i am alone too much that i try too hard to try to make friends yet at the end of the day, no one is there for me... so hard that it is a burden for me that i cannot take it soon...

maybe i really need to go back to IMH again for depression...

my store room.

but really it is my room...



amazingly, i have space to us it as a studio -.-

i am beated

*yawns* my "new" room is like a store room, i am going to sleep in a room with boxes surrounding my bed *my parent's not that old sofa bed*!!... really... my light source are 2 small lamps

well at least, i am not sharing rooms. well time to sleep, u will not see any pics of it for awhile as it was on film...

* i am so happy i dun have S&W on monday!!!!! see you dvfx folks on tuesday!*

last night in potong pasir

i was busy packing from 11pm till now... *and still continuing... -.-*

so it is now last morning in potong pasir... -.- okay

well phase 3 is going to start in 3hrs time so time to take a nap and back to packing...

i living in a dump

well what... the move is on sunday... and yesh my place look like a dump

*shows pic* and ignore my face PLEASE!!!

june

sep

just now.

whao! my crap disappeared... to...

the floor

okay time to sleep,i have a shoot at what 12 and meeting kage at 10 plus... @.@... nights world!

wifi at my grand's place

blogging live from my grandma's place ... -.- lolz...

well phase 2 of the move is in action.
Network is running so is phone, but for now no one is here..


well this is my "new" room, it used to be my hikikomori uncle's room and my dad's from long long time ago.

togusa is offline!

as of 3.48am.

My network server is down for good in potong pasir.
Currently i am on Phase 1 of the move.

Singtel have disconnected my Net access and fixed phone line at 3.48am.
Today at 10am they are to come over to my gran's place to install the new cables and set up the network there.

well it is 4am and time to sleep...
*jessie if u are reading this, dun mind if i borrow your net for a few days*

finally

finally i got my timetable



Once again it is a 3 day school week for me!!!!
Well. I went to NP on monday to check if am i enrolled in my course or not... what happened was that or what FMS office thought to be was that as i am a transferred student the system dun auto update me. but well they were shocked.

monday -> no class due to i did S&W and CATS last year. *hated those modules*
tuesday -> 9am-6pm Photography!!!! ya 9 to 1 all on photography, well maybe sharpen my skills only... Writen Comm T.T... it is English class again... i am expecting to score badly for it. Animation Foundation -> Zbrush and basic flipbook and etc. should be okay for this module. Location Production! the most fun and expensive module.
and yes on tuesday i have like 4 of 5 modules i am taking this sem...
wednesday ->9am-5pm 3D art by calvin again!. more to wiremesh and clay. aniFdn in the afternoon.
thursday -> 9am- 11pm? Writ comm T.T in the morning for 3 hours... then 2hrs break then locprd! till 6, then it is cca till 11pm.... i so going to kill myself.. -.-
friday -> for projects i guess and well cca at 5/6pm...

well it should be a good sem.

I cannot drink. pronto.

It is getting worse. My alcohol tolerance has gone to the all time low i think...

In the past, 2 bottles [500ml total] of sake and i will just get the itch... and well super high... but these days [like tonight] 2 bloody small sake cup and i was turning red and well high abit, but not drunk...

and i dun get how some frens can finish a whole bottle of vodka when 30ml of it with 2 mugs of ribbena and make me knock out...

so if anyone ask me to go clubbing, i think the free drink coupon will last me the night... -.-

fyi: i cannot drink tiger, heineken [turn rosy in like 1 mug for draft or 2 small bottles]... asahi and kirin and yebisu have little effects on me. one glass of wine and i go red.

why so moodless?

My fren was bored... and after he read my msn nick -> y moodless.
he was like why so moodless sound so much better... well so here you have it.



moodless laughing man style...
haiz thanks man...

Well it is 2 more sundays to the move. and well, i dunnoe what to move there. Going to pack my PC and computer stuff next week, my school stuff are in the boxes. still I look around... i have tons to pack, yet i am wasting my time, mayaing and escaping reality.

results...

it is 5 days since the release of the results so... here is it...



and yes i did badly...

2D art: i was hoping for a B but i think those works at the start of the term put me down...
design typo : i think i mess up for the final submission as i was the last to submit... *overslept*
IntroCG : well 4 nights of maya paid off.
Socpsyc : i thought i going to fail it from the start. so heck that it is a D.
Storytelling&boarding : for someone that scored B4 for english, YAY!!!! and note i cannot write other than emo crap.

now the joke of IS...
all my last year IS got transfered over as stated in the results... but they want me to retake Sports & wellness and CATS again... -.-

well going to settle it with IS office soon.

on a side note... my flu is still on and i am shooting tmr -.-

laughing man

coming soon to EOY... lolz... dun mind i lazy to invert the photo.

totally no more long hair....

ya the hair is back to the length that i had during the grad dinner in 2006...

some random hair pics

from 2006

grad night 2006 [right after i did my hair]

face censored to not kill your eyes

Dec 2006 in japan
[turkey durmstick is nice]




oct 07. I rebonded my hair in June 08 i think...

jan 08. the rebond was gone so i started tying my hair



April 08 during cca open house..


May 08. i photobooth = camwhoring.


june 08.
I tied my hair for like months


and short again.. .lolz

well at the salon my usual stylist was like, get your eye brow done, got weird hair sticking out... and ya really need one as there was no eye brow at the corner 3 mths back and now there is.

alot of crap

While packing my computer hardware parts... i realised i have alot of rams/ gfx card sound blasters and etc

here is the list

creative soundblaster x2
lan card [10/100] x2

gfx
ati9250 [128mb] x1
MSI nvida 7300GS [256mb]
geforce 4 mx x2
nvida fx5200 [128mb]
tnt2 [32mb] x1 [64mb] x1
some 32mb gfx card

rams

laptop
hynix [korean] [shipped in acer laptops] 256mb pc2-3200 [DD-2-333] x2
Kingston 1GB DDR-2 533 x1

CPU
kingston 128mb PC133
kingston 256mb PC133
PC 133 64mb
memory power 128mb PC133 x2
pc 100 64mb [sd ram] x2
pc 66 32mb [sd ram] x2

hard disk
samsung 40gb [3.5"] [2004]
seagate u series X 16gb [before 2002]
ibm 40gb [2001]

drives
LG combo drive DVDx16 [read] CD-RW [52x 32x 52x] x1
samsung CD 52x
CD-rom 24x
PSU

power man 300watts

2 old motherboards [ AMD i think]

if u want any of these parts... email togusa[dot]chan[at]gmail[dot]com

NJRC 08

Like one of the chief judge said... NJRC needs to be re-invented.
I went down on Thursday as SAS was competing, i can say the event:

1. Shirk. to 2/3 of the location it used to be and containing the same number of students.
2. The supporting crowds have died down.
3. The judges at the fields are mostly new and dun really understand NJRC.
4. Major issues still occurs...
5. Trainers are the Problem now.

Well, i went back to see NJRC as i felt the need to see how my juniors fair, and meet some old friends. I know it was also my duty to mentor my juniors but with the projects i had and the dying interest in them, I find it hard to teach them.

I threw aside robotics to persue my interest in photography, but i always wonder, should i go back every now and then and help the remaining ones? With FLL at the end of this year and VEX ARL [20-22 of nov 2008]. I dunnoe should i help or not.

2 months of no BECK

Is over!
Just finished reading chap 98 of beck. and well the art still rock on!.

mhh i think BECK was the first series that i TRULY READ before i watch the anime. and how i got hook on the manga, i have no idea...

Well all my manga, animes and games are pack away in my boxes waiting to be move over to my grandma's place. currently the final moving date is 13th of oct [monday]. Till then, togusa will be still in potong pasir.

Wrong time, wrong place and wrong mood...

Is it me or i am blind. I picked the wrong day, wrong place and she was obivously in the wrong mood. she was not the first one that i ask her out, yet, after 3 years and so many girls. I still making the same mistake.

Maybe i should be the one waiting, instead of me asking.
But, i am sick of waiting...

Massive numbers of shoots...

And i need to update here...

lets count backwards...

31/08/08 -> The matsuri [which it sucks, only was there for some frens]
30/08/08 -> A fashion shoot in town in the afternoon and a bikini shoot in the evening [ Found nice locations in town, and well had a nice short bikini shoot with kage.]
24/08/08 -> Natsu Matsuri 2008 [ a very wet event this time, but it is still fun]
21/08/08 -> a random fashion shoot with lenne at puggol end. [damn LOL.]
20/08/08 -> KHR shoot at changi airport. [ the tunnel of light is hahahaha]
17/08/08 -> Apollo Justice shoot at City hall [ Was damn fun and some how managed to escape the rain in time]

total: 7 shoot in 3 weeks...
before that was my school term and well maya killed me...

Finally i updated...

Yap. i have transfered all the stuff to verision 13.01!

Going simple this time as i realised... Skinning takes too long and with massive amount of bugs. i will stick with this skin for now. as i see no need to make those super messy and cged stuff. [another reason will be people stealing my codes again, which at its peak in 2005 was 240 blogs using codes which i did not upload on blogskin.com]

well stealling kills talent.

a need to update here.

ya there is a need. well, my school is over, for the next 7 weeks. so for now, i am packing my place as i will be moving just before my term starts.

well more updates of what happen recently will be coming up, so check back later.

time to do a skin change?

i think it is nearly a year that i upgraded my blogskin to verision 12.

now at 12.7.

i think it is time to change to a simpler one.

so that at least i can photo blog.

*edit: the last update to the skin was on 1st of july 07....*

zzz...

haiz... lonely days... no one to chat again... well maybe i am also busy doing maya... so no different.

my head feels light

it is not due to my moodlessness, nor alcohol...

it is just that i cut off my 40 cm plus of hair....

the moodless days...

my moodless issue is getting on my nerves,

I did not shoot much on sunday due to it.
I could not photoshop on sunday night due to it.
I had issues trying to do my 3D maya work due to it on monday.
and now? i cannot sleep as it is bothering me..

but what is it really bothering me?
I have no idea, but there is something inside of me that is very irritated.
Is it school? or is it my lifestyle? or is it because of someone?
whatever it is, i wish it will go away, it is affecting my mood and my thinking...

haiz...
life love to throw their shit to me till the point that life cannot go on...

Singapore toy and comic connvention

I can say. it looks like a success for a toy and comic connvention, but not for a cosplay event.

spent like this amount during those 2 days,,,:

day 1:
devil robots: 2 stickers + one to-fu oyako air fresher [milk] [total $8]
toki-doki: 1 sticker and 2 fans [total $7]
The flith by Gary erskine *love the cover* [$5]
fake pan [$4.90]
Lunch [$4]
Dinner [$7]

day 2:
tokidoki: 2 stickers [$2]
stifles x2 [$19.60]
Smery tofu [$9.60]
lunch and etc [$10]
dinner [$6.70]
k-box [$15]


total damage: SG$98.80!!!!
and note. i now owe ciel $80, vic $10 [although she owe me $110] and $90 to kage...

well anyway. Photos of some of the toys are on sgcafe. and soon on DA.

:day 1:
:day 2:

kena sexposed again...

was checking the spelling for fiesta and so i typed cca fiesta in... what i got was a youtube link on the 5th choice. and guess what! i was sexposed in it! damn!...

it was made by the computer club.

life is funny ain't it?

friday the 13th did occur to me again for the 4th year running. i forgot that things happens on the week of it and the week after it and it had to be some major shit did happen to my always cocked up messed life...

august 04, mess up my papers for promotion to sec 3...
jan 06, kena used as sub for 10 days....
april 07, she dun want to talk to me...
june 08, another got off the market...

damn sian...

It is like i cursed to have relationship issues on the weeks of friday the 13th is it?

i so going to watch this in HD

Wall.E!!!!!
ya no flim... i want digital!! like panda kung fu at the grand cathay!!!!

but out in 2 months!

money money money....

i need to save alot for these.


my buying wish list.:
1. Hoya R72 IR filter 55mm [$40] **
2. Minolta rokkar MD 28mm f2.8 [2nd hand] [$170]
3. Zenitar-M 16mm f2.8 Fisheye [with a MD mount] [US$199] [link]
4. Nikkor 50mm f/1.8 [$175]
5. Nikon D300 [$2500]
6. laughing man costume [ $250] **
7. Sony MDR-EX52SB earphones [$60] [lost my pair from japan, which i got it for like SG$40]
8. Audio technica ATH-SQ5 or ATH-ES7 [ $120] [i lost one side of hearing on my sony headphones from japan]
9. Tripod [$99] [MO from Alfred] **
10. fix my old acer laptop [$120++]******

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total: $3,834+++

T.T.. and the only thing i have at home to raise money is to sell my mangas.
haiz. need cash!

i slept for 14 hours

slept at 5am and woke up at 7pm... i am getting back to my old self before poly?
at this rate i wlll not be shooting anything on film.

well at least i am doing my assigments. introcg's movie poster is almost done.

here is is a preview to the final poster. It is totally made up and pics are stocks... ya a lazy photographer ain't i? anyway it is hard to find the locations for my idea. [really singapore have no nice places to shoot. and i have no money to travel out.]

next is to do my storywriting final draft. practice 2d art, and finish up design class works and do socpsyc crap.

streetfest 08

some pics from streetfest

togusa is still alive and emoing...

geez just due to i have not blog for a long it that does not meant i am dead... *and complain to me via msn somemore... -.-*

well what am i supposed to blog? 7 weeks into my second time in year 1 of poly. Nothing really interesting happened except my new class rocks, but like the past 11 years in school, i am still a loner in class. haiz... such a cruel life... No matter how i act, and behave, i am still back to be a loner.

People think i have alot of friends, but they fail to understand, it is that i know more people, not that i have more friends. Looking back at my secondary school days, only a few of the hundreds i know are really friends. Now in poly. still there are not many.

haiz... life...

missing from here.

Okay i have not been updating here.

one year after and it still scares me when i see her full name.

i ain't moving

oi! to those uncles and aunties,

I dun want to move to that place.

Sell the god damn district 11 place and get a smaller and NEW property which is @ half of the selling price of the current aging place.

remember toilet bowls?

those in sas robotics and in the robotics scene back in 04 to 06, I hope u remember the toilet bowl. the shirt selling toilet bowl.

and some will know that i had planned to do moving/ remote control robot toiletbowl.

well this are some example that is on the net. [spotted on mrbrown]

ghost in the shell live action movie

i am a GitS fan. most of you guys will know that. and it looks like dreamworks with steven spielbreg as director, is going to produce it [they got the license]

yesh!

time to do laughing man before it get popular again.

on the side note:
- i go the plastic to make the mask, next will be sending the laughing man logo for printing on to the plasticsheet.
at the same time going to cut out my eye holes and getting white stocking to cover the holes.
- got to rewatch GitS: SAC coz i think my boots are the wrong one and my jacket i need help.

year one.... again!

One year since i am in NP. and i am back to the starting.

For the idiots and those that do not know. I am back in year 1 in NP.

it is funny to go to school at 8am on the first day of school just for CCA. and i am year 1!. My current classmates were like o.o what the hell are u doing at a CCA booth?

well Photography Booth turn out seem okay with 150 plus freshies *but it only like 20% will remain*

on JTC side, turn out was slower but still okay. with more otakus. and well most want to join the cosplay division, which will KILL me. *my sub-com will be working like the main-com for less CCA points...* well i will ignore it for awhile.

School seem great, as i only have like one class today. which was IS. My Jap 102 class was better than last sem as saku and xminoru is there. *and i still sleeping away*

well pack classes on tuesday with Storytelling and storyboarding at 9am *note they teaching us on how to blog. o.o*

then 1pm to 6pm for 2D art. *i think i still can draw. people, NO. object, Yes. Designing, Yes. -.-*

well long day then.

I realised, there is little time to have a relationship during this year. the only time i can spend my time is at night or on the weekends. which is getting killed off by photoshoots, editting and doing school/CCA work. Maybe it is best i keep myself busy, then i will not think back.

It is a year since then. i need to move on with life.


Life goes on
by Love psychedelico
lyrics from www.corichan.com/lyrics

"Nobody is free from nothing" kare ga shiru no wa kore ga first time
Yorokobi wa cooking, shopping, talking, walking, running, eating
waiting & shooting
congratulations on the birth of you
life goes on

"Thank you very much" kare ni iu no wa kore ga first time
Kutaiteki shien wa "fat, cash, serve" what does she love?
hey, there  hey, the master
Ai no oka de kuraou

Jesus karen na me wa filled with tears
Ki ni naranai you ni ai wo matsu gimme some truth
Yuukan na ne ga sounds alright to me
hit me, hit me dou shiyou ka hundred times I fall

falling to the end of the sky
I am rolling over the rain
feeling to the end of the mind
I am growing over the pain

"Nobody has perfect notes" kimi ni iu no wa kore ga first time
Kanensei no jouro de tane wo maku government
Inoru sube naki ni mesareyou religion
he says, "I would like you to lie for me"
"Please don't involve me, sir"
hey, there  hey, the master
life goes on life goes on

Jesus karen na me wa filled with fears
Ki ni naranai you ni asu wo matsu nothing for it but to do
Ano hi ureita shoujou ga kneels down
mercy. mercy ai ni yukou ka hundred times I fall

falling to the end of the sky
I am growing over the rain
feeling to the end of the mind
I am rolling over the pain

Sou sa  soko ni aru day
Te no naka  suna ni naru day
oh, I still want the truth

Yasashisa omoishiru made
Kanashimi ni idomu yo na kimi ga suki sa

falling to the end of the sky
I am rolling over the rain
feeling to the end of the mind
I am growing over the pain
rolling to the end of the sky
I am falling over again

life goes on
life goes on

circle of one
circle of mind

one year is not a long time

It been a year since we kind of stop talking.

hate friday the 13th.

I got my macbook pro

and guess what? i crashed it in 30mins... o.o"

amazing ain't it?

but i got to say... it is sexy!!!!!

even the Black box it came in is also sexy!...

geez time to get the adobe series from NP. then it is shopping time on my mac. * my CPU will go back being a server and etc.*

and i still not used to single mouse buttons... @.@ and not use to using command/ apple sign + C to copy.

well time to back up my acer laptop, send it to courts, then to acer to fix then back home... to be use by my dad... @.@

i am now in FMS

I am totally in FMS doing DVFX. no more doing AT in ME.

but i still in NP.

I still need to mail MINDEF my SSL[NS]
Once the data is corrected.

next is to go to FMS office to ask y i am doing IE in year one and go to IS to ask y my JAP 102 EP is not apporve when i paid by SSM and ask y my NPAL and MEL is looking very weird.

looks like i got IS on monday and 2DART on tue plus IE...


fuck hate shortforms and Code geass R2 is coming in at 500kbps. -.-

the last post is not an april fool joke.

Really it is not an april fool joke.

Well happy fooling fools today!

WARNING: Dun complain you cannot sleep after this post.

If you are going to freak out by watching shutter or playing fatal frame. Skip this post. Really skip it. this is not for the weak.





deserted? by ~Togusa208 on deviantART

Shot at OCH during the NP photog club outing about a few weeks back. Looks cool. and yes i have no explanation for that object/ body hanging in mid air on the right of the corridor.

Also no explanation for the black dots on the photo. the negs are clean, my scanner is clean, but the black dots just appear. Shot on a colour film, but i cannot process unless i black and white it.

enjoy sleepless nights.
i love films

a few words. round 2

i got my transfer!!!


*currently at novena sq working.*

fates repeating again?

nearly one year after her, am i losing another?

500!!! posts Plus 1

i just realised. this will be the 501 post.

that is all i want to say.

ps. i hate the lonely days.

zetsubou sensei rocks!

Man, should had watched it long long ago!

well emo slice of life animes rocks.

screw harim type anime.

otaku, slice of life is love!


time to sleep, good friday got to work too.

i need a new skin

memo to self: need to create more new blogskins. or at least one. current one is getting old.

and in other news. i getting a transfer!!!! the DVFX module leader , marc, was like we welcome you in!!! now left AA branch to take me in. haiz. once that is done. i am officially transferred to Dvfx.

So till then i cannot say bye to my AT course.

Well one whole year in AT, and T1T2 [T1T5] was fun, sorry i did not go the last class chalet coz of my work. but it was fun "gaying" with you guys....

and can microsoft fix the prb of that office 2003 cannot update itself?????haiz...

missing you?

went for matsuri for the last 2 days. day 1 was j-rock *cough*crappy*cough*

met some old friends. and some new ones.

day 2. had the jtc meeting with the interested parties. see what we can do. then.

cosplay matsuri was okay but i was selective and lazy on taking cosfucks. so i only went round shooting frens and etc...

well photos are up on sgcafe and DA. so go there and check.

haiz and i am missing you.

moodless rainy days.

these rainy days can make you emo. especially when you are soaked by the rain, waiting for a bus, alone.
Sometimes i still wonder why i travel to your place, just to take a bus.
Sitting at that bus stop, looking at your flat.
I still wished we were still friends.
haiz the rainy days.

well got to put that in the past.
today's bus trip back to NP was emo-ish due to the fucking rain.
hope the weather will not be so fucked up like today or else the ubin trip will be water logged..

i wanted to take back the D300 today to play but heck it is with alfred. *but lucky he did that, 2 D70s with 2 18-70mm + 2 70-300mm G + 2 50mm and my own D40 with 18-55 and 70-200 and my flash plus my XD-7 +50mm +35-70mm and my tripod and laptop!
is that all?*

what else i need?

weekend worth of shoots!

sunday shoot with kage and vic was great, although we shot only for like 1.5hrs!

the weather was the turning point! from sunny to cloudy and wet! *just what i want!!!*

well now me and kage want to do the same shoot again! in the same outfit and location as 1.5hrs is not enough, although we spent like 30mins point the middle finger all over the place. till the point some other group of photographers stole our idea for their shoot. *fuck them!*

links to the pics:
| blue eyes |
| staring at me |
| fuck you loser |

IT show was not worth going down. and ya i had a guilty gear shoot on saturday instead of giselle's waloli shoot.

meds...

damn... my craving for my drugs are on again... nearly eight - nine months off them, but the cravings are back.

should i dig up my old stock pile of painkillers or go get anti-d from the doc?...

damn i need sleeping pills too...

damn forgot to blog

okay lets see. i forgot to blog for nearly 2 weeks.

okay mhh i currently working at some event management company. which kinda sux. coz the boss love to send me to do tiring stuff, like travelling around the country to collect his debts. *yes sg is small but he thinks buses are his car. * it takes me like 1 hr to get to defu from east coast, by car, it is a 15min drive.


hate. this. job.

really. $5/hr sound good, i was thinking i will be doing paperwork, but nope i get a debt collector job. sweet say.

*started work like last week*

and i realised i may not have time to complete my portfolio !!! i am screwed!

10k

yay 10k hits after 2years and 4mths

juno

i want to watch juno.... any takers?

artwork

I had the urge to draw something eariler...
Have a look at it, if u want to comment,comment on my DA





Cityscape by ~Togusa208 on deviantART

10 months and still like this

Bitch, you threaten me and etc....
please do note.
break a bone and you will see your self in jail.

I will see to that.
i have evidence to cover it if you really want to do it.

fucking late nightz

ya 4 am liao.

and my family problem are getting worse. *shakes head*

ratings

some one say i need to rate my posting coz there are NC16 and M18 post.... geez my bro is 12 and he knows as much as me....

and fuck my EG2 paper. it is add maths and i having prbs.. fuck it.

oh it is NC16 i guess.

today is SAD

yap it is SAD, single awareness day!

forget valentine.

pft... never really had a valentine day for all my life i think. [not sure about back in childcare, but i remember after CNY, i get alot of cards ]

heck those days....

haiz. well at least i managed to go out with kage for like awhile today....

v-day?

Nothing going on this year.

coz
a. i got a paper on the 15th.
b. she is going out with her.
c. she boycotting v-day
d. i cannot watch sweeney todd.

pft.
study maths lolz

damn i missed last year

anyone else but you?

Anyone else but you
from JUNO ost.


Your part time lover and a full time friend,
The monkey on the back is the latest trend,
Don't see what anyone can see,
In anyone else,
But you

Here is a church and here is a steeple,
We sure are cute for two ugly people,
Don't see what anyone can see,
In anyone else,
But you

We both have shiny happy fits of rage,
I want more fans, you want more stage,
Don't see what anyone can see,
In anyone else,
But you

I'm always tryin to keep it real,
Now I'm in love with how you feel,
I don't see what anyone can see,
In anyone else,
But you

I kiss you on the brain in the shadow of the train,
I kiss you all starry eyed,
My body swings from side to side,
I don't see what anyone can see,
In anyone else,
But you

The pebbles forgive me,
The trees forgive me,
So why can't,
You forgive me?
I don't see what anyone can see,
In anyone else,
But you

Du du du du du du dudu
Du du du du du du dudu
I don't see what anyone can see,
In anyone else,
But you.

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Damn.... finding anyone that want to watch in the weeks to come! weekday better coz the movie ticket prices is nearly the same in japan!

idiot..

This happen like 30mins ago....

0310: started hearing periodical shouts that sounded like crows... which is odd as it is 3am plus! i only hear that at like 6am... next thing, i went to the window to listen carefully. it was not crows but was like "hawt.... hawt... hawt..." then some weird sounds.... like whining. crows dun whine..

So asked my dad. he was like quiet. then the hawt turned to help.
time to go down and check as i cannot see from my window. and my dad was smart. no phone and no IC he went down...

for me... i grab my phone, my wallet, my cam, flash, batts and SD card...

0315:went down to second floor and look out. see nothing, but the screams sounded from sajc... my dad got lazy and wanted to go up. -.-
In the end. the shouts reappeared.

when down headed to sajc side. see nothing but the shouts stop. but look in the water, circular ripple pattern. If you did life saving, that equals some one in the water... shouted at her, no reply. [ too late?] nah, she was still there... -.-

0318:called the cops. and tell them potong pasir ave 3 [which is only 1.5 km long with ONE bus stop and bridge] and they still get lost... 2 cars went to sajc... -.-
well before they appeared... my dad and i realised one idiot thing we did... no torchlight.
so i use my flash and model light the place. [idiot action 2, SB-800 dun have a range of 30m] and for the obvious it did not work. i waited on the bridge, my dad went to the river edge. As we waited for the cops [about 8mins after the call], that person managed to get oriented and managed to swim[?] back toward my dad. which he help to pull her in to the shore. from that range. we could see that she was a old indian granny. [no wonder my english did not reach her. shouted damn loud earlier which caught my neighbour attention]. My dad talked to her in english, no reply. so malay. then she started talking.

2mins after she was on the shore. and climbed over the ledge to the park connector path and sat at the bench, the cops arrive. [the first 2 went to sajc/ ave 1 side, and i told them ave 3 the bus stop and bridge.] [baka action 3]

0325:i called my mom to tell her no problems so she can stay at home. but she kiasu and came down too. right before the 3rd police car arrived. at the correct location i told them. they thought that the victim was still in the water... [officers, you took 8mins to come, for the obvious reason we tried to save her]
then 2 more police car appeared and the officers in the 2 cars at ave 1 was slowly walking toward the bridge [see, it is far]

well 5 cars for a granny who managed to swim to the edge, and climb up the slope and climb over the railing... that is odd. then last was the ambulance [0335] by that time one of the officer had both my and my dad's statements down. [which i can tell you, his was very off]. had to wait in the cold for 10mins before we were let off coz my dad wanted to watch soccer... -.-

as we were walking back. jess sms me.
"hey, isaw u, just now, haha...
wat happened? bridge ther?"


now wonder y the blog was titled idiot?

i will list it down.

1. no ID and phone: how to call the cops? if it is a gang got to call and run. and even it is my first time having my statement taken at a scene and calling 999, it is obvious that they will check ID...

2. i bring my cam but no pics...: but the flash did not work! *got time to set to iso 1600? set my SB-800 to 1/1 power? change my amp to f/3.5? and shutter to??

3. dun the police have a computer and maps on it?: when i said potong pasir ave 3, he should be able to location fast and if the maps are from all the government boards. they will know that there is a bus stop [one and only] and one bridge.

4. i said bridge and bus stop not ave 1.: u should get why i said this. the first 2 came 5mins after the call to the wrong place.

5. granny if you wanted to commit suicide why the hell do it from the edge? really if i look at the river current, it was downstream and slow. from her location i first spotted her. she was about 10 meters from the bank. If i wanted to drown. i will jump from the bridge. the force when the head hit the water will break the neck if it is head first.

6. granny if you wanted to commit suicide why the hell are you screaming for help? noisy you know.

7. granny if you wanted to commit suicide why the hell are you can swim back, climb up a 30 degree slope, and climb over a railing fence? this one i have no comment.

8. granny if you wanted to commit suicide why the hell are you stop screaming when i shouted if anyone there? dun want to get rescued?

9. granny at least say something in tamil or whatever if you did not get what english i was screaming.? damn i thought she gone liao.

10. jess ah... on your blog ah, [NOTE: she posted her post before i finished this post] say i kay poh. ain't you more kay poh than me. And i did my duty by reporting someone drowning. it is 3am in the morning. no one will know she was there, well except you and me....

11. i am wasting my time to blog about that idiot granny [0530 is the time i finish this blog]

hahaha moodless ah?

someone read my blog and said that to me...

i was by your side

9th feb 07

i rush to your side once the result was out. You were in shock, I knew it was bad.
Rushing off from SAS, saying goodbye to my teachers and classmates for the last time, i waited for you at tiong.

You were stoned and down as you walked into the station in your school uniform. We went to town as tiong was full of your school people.
You let me see your results. I was shock too, you were down and i dunnoe what to do. All i could think of was advising you to try NAFA or lasalle. We sat at mos at taka, calling nafa and lasalle for their entry requirements. Both you did not make it. Pissed and sicked of being in your school uniform, we heading back to you place. On the bus we did not talk much.

I could not go up to your place as your dad was in. changed and came down. We headed back to town.

That was last year.
but you did great this year. 20 for L1R4, you can try for some poly courses or nafa. this year, there is no way to be by your side. But i was still advising you to pick FMS or try JPSAE to get into a poly course that you like. It was through kage. It been a long time that we talked through a proxy.
my heart still misses you.

how long has it been?

add this to the moodless series...

30/01 has more than one thing on that day...

it has been a year plus since we first started to hang out with which other but it has been 9 months since we stop talking, seeing , messaging to each other. I really miss you still, but life still have to go on. every time i see you at events, i felt that i should talk to you but i dun think i have the chance to pull you away to somewhere quiet to talk.

From meeting you outside the toilet at cosfest to standing like 2 metres from you at eoy. I should have taken the chance. But i ignored you as you ignored me.

We cannot go on like this. I know we will never go forget the past and i know we cannnot be together anymore, but can we make up and forgive me?

More shoots?

Ya more shoots.

had one VK one last sunday

a last minute POT shoot just on saturday...

another POT one next month

then tentative on a GL shoot in march

before that is a shoot with vic and her haruhi

and with kage in her embla

then air gear i guess.

@.@

legal liao

ya
legal to drink.
legal to smoke.
legal to go clubbing.
legal to go into jackpot rooms.
legal to enter some shops.
legal to pay for services.
legal to cover clubbing events! *finally*

what else ah?

dun get it? find the legal age in sg lah.... -.-

NP open house

By the time you read this. ALL the poly open house will be over for 2008.

I will only comment on my own poly's open house. It is not as crowded as last year.
Really.

I spent like the whole 3 days skipping some classes and helping out at the photog booth doing stuff like

I am bored so i played with the 50mm len

and this

My Pres's doll

and that.

A random passerby that wanted to try the costume

and heck!

$20.60 paper clips

The clubs's new baby,nikon D300

わたし は トグサ で... Watashi wa togusa desu

my mom will kill me if she saw this. it is just a prop


More pics go to my deviant -> http://togusa208.deviantart.com/

w960i

haha using my w960i to type this post.. well hope it last me for the next 5... it is a smaller iphone. with a normal pad... geez bloging on pc is easier

9mins one ep...

yap.... 500kbps in 9mins = one 24mins .mkv file.... sweet right?

oh pics from my KL trip
http://s186.photobucket.com/albums/x170/togusa-kuraichi/2007-KL-trip/

not much ah... coz most of the fraser hill photos are not done yet....

watching genshiken.... damn i feel like sasahara....

2008

damn i am supposed to blog on my trip but i am tired.
nightz

and happy new year