should i or should i not?

been wondering too much these days.

I know i have not been updating whattheflush as much as i did for the last few years, yes i am tired of going home to blog and emo about my boring life.(as i now have to write my sad, boring and emo life in scripts coz it kinda works and that i am writing for animax youth council and my moodlessdays photoblog. BUT for all those readers that have been supporting me and commenting on my cbox! THANK YOU FOR THE SUPPORT, I AM not in the emo mode these days. You all can still continue to read more wtf/FML/OMG/WTH/GG/LOL/oTL stuff on my twitter, yap twitter, @togusachan. i kinda post links to anything i updates on it... anyway if you are lazy and go view it, my twitter updates are posted here. too * after the pics*

so thank you all for following whattheflush, this is not my last post, but it may be last for 2009 coz i heard china block blogger = I CAN'T UPDATE !!!
T.T

I will be out of singapore mostly from the 19th

19th: 6am fly from changi to KL
19th&20th: comic fiesta!!!
21th: 7am fly back from KL
23th: at airport
24th: 1am fly from changi to beijing
25th: white xmas * i hope*
26th: missing EOY
29th,30th,31th: in china, china, onthe way back
29th,30th,31th: missing comiket * I HAD THE CHANCE TO GO JAPAN T.T*
31th 23.59: in singapore, Happy new year
1st: 9am: at home CHIONG projects
2nd,3th:CHIONG MORE
7th,8th,9th: NP Open house ( pop by JTC booth to pay for preorder tix or photog booth for the fun of it.
16th: GitS
29th prep soyb
30th SOYB
31th SLEEP.

hahhah too much info.

where'd you go.

ah damn i miss you so...

messed up life.

I am a failure. Every shit i do, it dun turn up right. Right from Primary school all the to now. I am just a complete failure, i just can't do it correctly can't i? really. Is my karma that fucked up bad? till the point that whatever things i do will just break down? I suck at shooting these days, i can't seem to find something interesting to shoot. I escaped my bowling all due to my left hand. I left robotics coz i was not that great anyway. I stop gaming coz i was never the top fagger...

I can't write for nuts, so i guess no one is going to read this or my photoblogs.
I can't even date for nuts sake. All i get are rejects and [sorry to say] weird girls.
I jumped from aerospace coz my mind can't take it.
now in DVFX, i ain't doing that well. AND then i mess up. my internship form was not sent through. it was just sitting in the draft box when i thought i saw the mail animation flying away and the window closed on last friday morning. I just totally messed up.

i dunnoe what to do now. I just send another email explaining y i did not send when i thought i did to my course manager. but now I just want to go and sleep in peace and not to wake up. but then all these things plays in my head once i shut my eyes.

really why deserve all these shit. I know i am abit harsh to my parents at times. I know i piss them off. I know i am always late. i know i lie alot. i know i dun pray to any gods. but then is my karma that bad that whatever good i do did not offset it?

i knew the weekend was too peaceful,

welcome to my life.

welcome to the moodless days.

fuck it.

using work to forget about life

with school just started. fine it is soon to be the 4th week. i think i throwing myself deep into work to forget that i have no social life outside school and the folks i know from the cosplay circle.

everything i do got to be related to school, jtc, photog and cosplay. it been a long time since i gone back for robotics and bowling. kinda miss the old days but there are some stuff there i dun want to remember. but well even in my current circles, there are shit that should be flushed down the pipes by now. but they are still there lurking in the toilet bowl.

there is nothing choking it, but it is unable to disappear. anyway wtf with me using the toilet bowl as a methpor... after this 3-4 years, i realise i will not find my Senjōgahara. i can't fall for the normal/hyper/ lians in this foresaken country. i see no interest and well some of them actually make me wonder are sg girls that ahh... what the word? dumbfounded?

ya i like tsunderes, weird, problematic, different,abnomral, oddity type. not easy to find outside the cosplay/anime/creative circles. but in the end i am not the kind of guy they are looking for.

maybe i should just be single like troy chin and realise that educated lian that you love, ain't going to marry you coz you are still a geek, although she is there hanging with u all the time.

LOOKING FOR...

okay if you are interested in acting, i have some no pay jobs for you guys.

1. #1: A docu-drama for Channel U by 360 Productions

They need 10 more cosplayers to be extras in the background as they want to make a scene at a cosplay event.

DATE: FRI, SAT, SUN [6th, 7th, 8th Nov]
PAY: none.
Contact person: vic -> [ thebakasaru@hotmail.com ] or sakurazaki [ 9651 9820]
more info -> http://sgcafe.com/showthread.php?t=66083

#2: A student Short film by Tisch School of the Arts Asia

A short synopsis of the film is that a boy named Ricky who is new in town, made a bad first impression with his next door neighbour only to discover that she not only goes to the same high school as him, but is the president of an anime club in his school too! To save face, Ricky decides to help win the King Con title in a local cosplay competition for the anime club. But there is only one problem: Ricky knows nothing about anime.

They need some cosplayers but this will be an audition first.

Audition Date: SUNDAY [8th Nov]
Audition Location:3 Kay Siang Rd, Singapore 248923
Shoot dates: January 4th to 11th, 2010
PAY: no pay, but food and transport provided.
contact person: togusa [ 9137 6030] or the person in charge ->

[ Catherine, chibiyannie@gmail.com ]
JTC folks please inform me before going for the audition.

#3: Another Student Short film production, called "summer and its rain" by 3rd year FSV students from FMS.

They need 1 female to dress up in either GL/punk/goth/sweet loli/cosplay with weird colour hair and hair do. No lines, only 2 scenes of playing with a rubix cube.

PRODUCTION DATE: next TUE afternoon [10th NOV] for about 1 to 2hrs shoot
PAY: $20 and transport can be arrange to location
Location: Some where near NAFA.
Togusa will be following the cosplayer to location.
contact person: togusa [9137 6030]
CONTACT ME ASAP IF YOU ARE INTEREST!!!!!!!!!!

look...i am addicted...

i am addicted to pr0n.... like real... i am addicted to twitter lah.

My first tweet was on feb 19th

in 4 mths, i was 541.

now.. 9 months later i have tweeted 2056 times [ at the time of this post]. I have twitter on my dock, my X1. on firefox. I linked it to my facebook that why alot of folks are complaining that i tweet too much that they remove me from their status update list. * but really status updates are still better than quiz and mafia wars requests*

I know i tweet too much. It is a habit. i see any FML/LOL/OTL/wtf/wth stuff on the streets and next moment i had tweet it via tweet.sg [you can't sign up with them liao coz idiots complain that it is slow] OR if there is wifi then by pocketwit [ if you have an iphone, there are better softwares].

whatever it is. i am sorry that i tweet too much and PLEASE STOP COMPLAINING... and how bad can it be? it is just a 140 char update. not like i am changing my msn nick every 30mins -.-

school is back

and i am still sleeping at 3am.

and just realised that yui had a haircut and well i still rather her long hair... Now with this short slope bob... she kinda remind me of her...... oh wells...

once again, 1 free day of school!!!

for 4th sem in DVFX, i still have a day off!!!

for my first year i had my monday and friday off and last sem wednesdays off.
This semester it is free mondays again!.

Scriptwriting is on tuesday, previz on wed afternoon and it is going to be a long thursday like every sem, 9am to 12mn of compositing and Organic Modelling and then cosplay club with mcd dinners till last bus.

for the 1st half of the sem, on friday afternoon i took business etiquette and image. wtf module and there should be no paperwork so that = easier life.

then basic french for the 2nd half. with most of my classmates.

if i ever get a movie written about me...

it will awfully look and sound like i copied most of the script and story from 500 days of summer. although i would title mine as 100 days of hell.

well really.

in the past, i kinda still believe in love, but these days, i am not seeing it anymore.

ahh ignore this old emo outburst...

My results for this sem

i was expecting worse. but YAY it was AWESOME

Camera and lighting effects.: A : the 1st production had issues with the cam, 2nd production the shoot was okay, but i aced the quizes. was expecting a B instead of a A

Hardware Modelling & animation : B+ : this was the maya module that was ranting and ranting and ranting was hoping for an A for this but i think due to my late submission i got mark down to a B+

IE: pass : dun need to talk about this time wasting module.

Motion Graphics & broadcast design: A : this was kinda a surprise, like for cam effects i was expecting to be mark down due to the group projects.

Post Production: B : i am not cut out to be an editor. hhahaha. I think i got a B coz i was late for 1 quiz and mess up another one....

Production Planning: B :.... i was hoping for A coz of the time i send putting into the production portfolio. but well B due to attendance and late?

in the end up this sem GPA is 3.5294. HIGHEST i ever get after 2.5 years in NP. but my total GPA went up by 0.2 to 2.9444. ya now i am 0.0556 away from 3 -.-

5 days to my results??

i just got reminded that this sem's results will be out on friday,  3pm.

ahhhhhhhhhh shit...

cause really i think i scored worse this sem and there goes my chances of going to NTU...

anyways... nothing much happened during this holiday, i emailed another studio to check if they are hiring but still no reply. So while the jobs are not coming in i am filling my self with production stills and backlogs and trying to improve my after effects. other than that. i have no life. hhahaa

my blog is quite dead ain't it?

it is nearly what... 4 years since i started blogging and my first and main blog is dying as i have nothing to blog about? nah it is more like that i rather to micro-blog like twitter. 140 characters are more fun than typing a whole essay of my life.

But, there are times were that 140 characters is kinda useless AND my twitter is linked to my facebook. *wait this blog also updates on my facebook* -.-. anyway.  sometimes there is a need to type out an essay coz life is so fucked up / boring / awesome, that twitter cannot handle it... hahhaha.

So what fucked up/ boring/ awesome thing that i have to say in this entry? WELL nothing... coz i been wasting my days sleeping. I still cannot find a job for this holiday and with only 5 weeks left soon, i can forget of getting one liao unless it is an event based job. 

Well if you want to see more updates of my life/ or more entertaining/awesome stuff... do check my photoblog -> http://moodlessdays.wordpress.com/

at least it is more entertaining than this shit....

the more i think about it...

the more i realised... i should wait awhile more then get my wacom -.- oTL. I should had just save all those cash and get my D300s. now i have to start all over again.

But one thing, at least now i can spend my remaining $500 on my film scanner, headphones and a ipod touch -.- OR get that AFS 35mm f/1.8 -.-

blogger is still bugged on my mac. AND natsu matsuri tickets.

these people PLEASE sms/Facebook/twitter/MSN/PM me to re-confirm your tickets.

YEAR ONES
- Cheong Wee Yin [1 tix]
- Derek [3 tix]
- JAVIS [1 tix]
- MATTHEW Keuk [1 tix]
- Nur Hasinah [2 tix]
- Seah Ji Si [2 tix]
- Yong Li Yan [1 tix]

YEAR 2s
- Kezia [2 tix]
- Nadiah [1 tix]
- Jocelyn [1 tix]
- Kenneth [2 tix]

YEAR 3s
- Lauren [3 tixs]
- Jia Huey [2 tixs]

Under my list:
- Dusty [3 tixs ]
- Cookie [2 tixs] [confirm]
- Eldred [1 tixs] [Standby list]
- Lenne [1 tixs] [confirm]
- ME [ 1 tix] [confirm]

Please help me inform these people
sms me @ 9137 6030

it is OVER...

hahha ya with all the projects finally submitted and files back-up-ed. IT is over.

this sem has ended and i need to find some work for this holiday. Which currently is the outlook ain't good. Call me fussy, but after working at that event company, i realised i should just find a photographer or studio assistant job.

well whatever i get a job or not. this holiday is going to be a boring one. The void from having no projects is growing bigger and This bi-annual freedom is actually bad for my health. My body's clock is so screwed up by the breaks that i sleep in the morning and wake up late afternoons.

my this sem works will be on my photoblog. still need to find a place to upload my video works online. currently facebook deletes my videos coz of the background music...

Blogger why i cannot find my post options?

and my text editor functions???? I cannot switch from HTML to edit mode. i cannot change font, or font size... i cannot text edit...

and well i tend to use them...

i used both Firefox and safari and it is not working... -.-

anyway in other news. I just had a 39c fever last night. deadlines are next week... so ya i am screwed...

will do some updates next week...

wants my holidays...

School will be ending in 3 weeks and this 3 weeks will be the hell of my life for now.

Within this 3 weeks,

i have to complete these

Hardware modeling: HAW-206 tank [10% done] and a Warehouse [0%] [due in 17 days]
Post Production: "tofu film fest" trailer [80% done] [ due in 8 days]
Production Planning: Production Portfolio of "LATE" [15% done] [due in 11 days]
Camera fx and MOgraph: Pre-production: 90%, Production 1 @ pre, Production 2 @ Pre. [filming =2 days] Post production = 10 days[ due in 15 days]ing

The HAW-206 is just time consuming.
the trailer, well i just need to add some more titles and fix audio then it is done...
for Production Portfolio, i am rushing it this week as i will not be able to start production of the camera fx and mograph works will friday. once the production part is over my group will only have 10 days to maya, after effects and put every thing together... To the industry, that is okay. to us students... it is Clusterfuck...

well i just want my holidays and to earn some cash for now... i want to get my D90 and some lens and my driver licenses before school starts on 19th oct...

PS: blogger is mess up... dunnoe y i dun see my normal interface -.-

i just type into my phone.

and send msg to no where. when i do not want to share it on twitter. it is quite emo for me to do it. but i need to say it to someone but that someone used to be you. having all these shit bottled up in me is stressing me up like in the past. i will just break again, soon. and this time i dunnoe what shit i will do..

i just want to go back. and being my cheerfully self that i long forgotten since i i been moodless. at the end i still need someone to save my soul.

i am amazed..

i was bored and went to check my statcounter.

10% of searches that reach my blog were "anime", "anime watch list"
1% is "whattheflush"
5% is "uniquo"... *ION outlet is openning soon... so i dun need to travel to tampines!*
3% is "togusa chan"

as expected. 77% of readers are from singapore
10% from USA
9% from unknown...

for broswers...
63% using firefox...
17% on IE 7 or 8
8% on safari
the rest are chrome and opera

it is quite LOL to see that 40% are using unknown OS... [i think they are all macs ]
30% on vista
25% on XP
and 1 user using win 98!!!!

time to go and edit more pics.

19...

Nineteen by tegan and sara...

I felt you in my legs
Before I even met you
And when I laid beside you
For the first time
I told you
I feel you in my heart,
And I don't even know you
Now we're saying
Bye, bye, bye
Now we're saying
Bye, bye, bye
I was nineteen
(Call me)
I felt you in my life
Before I ever thought to
Feel the need to lay down
Beside you
And tell you
I feel you in my heart,
And I don't even know you
And now we're saying
Bye, bye, bye
Now we're saying
Bye, bye, bye
I was nineteen
(call me)
I was nineteen
(call me)
Flew home,
Back to where we met
Stayed inside
I was so upset
Cooked up a plan,
So good except
I was all alone
You were all I had
Love you
You were all mine
Love me
I was yours right
I was yours right
I was nineteen
(call me)
I was nineteen
(call me)

-------------------------

and i was wishing this year will be better than last...

after all that shit..

so 4 years of friendship ends up like this... i really dunnoe what to say really.

I kinda know why you are ignoring me, but dun we used to have these fights in the past? what happened to your old self, your REAL self? From what i see, you really have a personality issue. Creating one for every new person you meet then once they know you well enough you treat them like dirt. like how you treat your family.
No wonder y me and hel are being ignored by you at times...

that y that day at that event, i was kinda wtf when you say family is VERY impt when i know you dun give a shit. then Helping all your "frens" when you dun help those that helped you before. Girl, you are being used again, like how you allow that idiot to be with you.

I am just worried for you. coz i know how shitty is it to be used to do things for others and get nothing back in return. Coz that is what you been doing to me recently... from teaching you on how to shoot, to your stop motion and your 24 ideas filming... i really get nothing in return but only your fucked up attitude...

I thought i will give you a chance to change after you broke up with that idiot. but now nearly a year. that you went back having your multiple personalty. I should had gave up helping you and hope you changed but from what happened recently...
I dun even need to bother.

So, next time if you need help, you still can ask me, but if i am getting that bullshit hime-sama attitude from you again... go and ask someone else.
Please just wake up and see the world.

where you go?

i fucking miss you so...

tsk.. it sounds like a post i made like 3 aprils ago...

anyways... life have to goes on. and i got Part 3 of The Resident Tourist by Troy Chin. I kinda been following his works after passing his booth at Toy con last year.

3 guys in a booth but well only 2 guys was there coz the 3rd guy had another booth...

I did not actually flip through his works at his booth, but it was that night i went to his site drearyweary.com, and well read like "All things being" and " The resident Tourist" [part 1] within a night.

The resident tourist is actually an ongoing autobiographical comic book/manga about Troy Chin himself, started out as a "side-project" but you can't really say it is a side project now coz he is actually not working/ have a job.

Well, i kinda got hook on his manga/comics due to all the local jokes and all.. and well it kinda remind me of my primary and secondary school life. Got Part 1 and 2 during one random visit to ani-play in late 2008 and i was like "troy printed his works???" *buys on the spot* it was about $10 each from ani-play, i think.

Part 3 of The Resident Tourist can be found at taka's Kino, Ani-play [sunshine plaza] and G&B comics. Kino is selling it at $17.90, Ani-play should be cheaper.


can't wait for part 4 which should be abit about 2008 and last year's toy con according to zerohero at Fool's progress. Hard copy maybe out by 2010.

I dun really care when it will the next book will be out, but TROY, do continue on and draw more. I really love your work Music Man!...

and i think i realised, there is a "mint" to in my life. she is just as lian and uses the middle finger and the word "fuck" as loosely as mint.


* i know my table is messy, kills self*

is it too much?

to ask for my dream girl to be like YUI??? not YUI from K-on! but YUI the singer... I am too picky i guess...

also i realised, due to i am twitting too much. my blog post cannot seem to go for more than 140 characters if i am talking about one topic. Paragraphing new post is getting really really hard and i dun think i have much to say. oh wells time to sleep

moodless night

How to say good bye by Paul Tiernan


Living isn't quite the same
You said to me, it's runnin' away.
If you're scared or tired of what you're scared of
Why should you stay
You love to say goodbye
And always counted all the time
'til he was free
to get up and leave
to learn how to breathe
again...

Slippin' out to have a cigarette
with someone else that he'd never met
Ask her if by the way would you like to
run away and try to forget
Just not to stay
To leave without saying why

To get up and go
To catch the last train
To get in some car and drive out again
To never come back this way
Left to say:

goodbye
so long
farewell
ovwar

goodbye
so long
farewell
ovwuar

--------------------

is it farewell?

so really all these 4 years...

we finally coming to the breaking point is it?

of all things you told the wrong person. really.

well life have to go on and you stop ignoring me  . things cannot get patch up by ignoring.

my schedule for the next few days

wednesday: 
1pm, be in NP, hope avid lab empty.
4pm, actual booking starts
4.30pm, collect cam from cage.
6pm, avid booking ends...

thursday:
10am in NP, pack photog room
2pm need to rush to zhao wei films.
3.30pm interview.
5pm rush to meet sponser.
6pm done?

friday:
10am in NP, move stuff from photog room to  new storage place.
5pm, avid booking again
6pm get kick out?

saturday?
go see see the mascot parade?
NEED to go to kino...  MPD and kurosaki corpses sevrices vol 9 are out!!!!
cut hair...
edit interview footage.

sunday.
Finish up production papers
finish up interview footage.

monday:
class at 2pm
avid at 6pm.

-normal day cycle returns-

life goes on... without me..

why? coz i am always left out of the picture...
hated to be casted one side while i do things for you people, then left to be forgotten till i am needed again...

oh wells it got to be karma for having a good life, with no real shit really happening...

fuck you maya...

really fuck you...

i command+S every time and yet, for the last 6hours, you never save. fuck you... now i am screwed. big time...

maya maya maya

really...

now i know why they name maya, maya. If it was a name like james, or 3D program A...

you cannot say fuck james when it crashes.. 
you also cannot say screw 3Dprogram when the backups disappears...

at least when u say fuck/screw/shit maya... it still sound natural...

Haruhi IS BACK

the NEW ep of haruhi was just release today. It is not a troll but i still cannot find raws of it so ya. it is a waiting game...

and GG got "hacked" an sos-dan logo is on it...

When you are pissed, you give me shit.

When i am pissed, you fucking ignore me. FUCK YOU OKAY.

YOU THINK THAT YOU ARE ALL UP THERE WITH ENLIGHTMENT. Girl guess what you do not have. If you really did do what you told me. You won't be saying all those stuff and not try to explain. And as you say you do try to change, but did you really change?

I see none of it. and you See none of mine. SO STOP TELLING ME TO SELF-REFLECT.
I CAN'T SELF-REFLECT by myself as i see myself as right... always right... I need to tell my issues to someone so they can tell me it is wrong. I need someone to tell me that is wrong with me.

I know that i am selfish. I dun care for others. i am an ass when i am working. i am stubborn to the core. I am a pessimist. I have time management problem. I am untidy. I am demanding. I think highly of myself.

for some i have reasons be that way.
1. Being selfish: imagine after spending 14 years of being bullied coz you are a nice guy. Won't you want to be selfish?

2. I dun care for others: Why should i care for people that step over me and treat me like shit, when they are no better than me? And really i dun do not care all the times. It is that my first reaction is to ignore.

3. Ya i am an ass: look, when we are doing the same work, and we are taught in the same class. You should be able to understand what is going on. IF you dunnoe what shit is going on. dun ask me, ask the lecturer. And we have a dateline you know, EVERY TIME I help you it is a loss to me, and a gain for you.

4. stubborness: I have an idea, you ask me for it, i tell you it, You tell me you like it, but you want to chance it, You chance a litte of it and say it is you idea. NO IT IS MY IDEA. then there is the YOU DUN LIKE IT. but YOU end up creating an IDEA that is LIKE my idea and you use it. Of course i disagree and rather my OWN.

5. pessimist: what can go wrong will go wrong. Nothing in this world really go your way. if i was a optimist, I would be ignore alot of shits that i need for deciding.

6. Time managment.: i need to cut my work load... and stop wasting time like on this blog.

7. Untidy: well thanks to my mom. she pack too nice that i find it easier to work in a mess.

8. demanding: if i dun have it my way, it is not my way. yesh my way sound like a shitty way, but sometimes it is now.

9. thinking high of myself: i dunnoe how it got by.

well i am tired so i am going to sleep... will continue this end later.

As real as it fucking gets

You will need a big space to work on a REAL photoshop...



and it is really real -> http://www.flickr.com/photos/18697966@N00/sets/72157608377333404/detail/
go to the high res one and view it. It looks CG when small coz well sharpen image looked CG...

REPOST: Vivienne Westwood's Anglomania A/W 09/10 collection.

Another Repost from moodless days.

Some photos that i took during the fashion show.

It was really an eye openner for me as a virgin fashion show goer . Now i hope that there will Comme des Garçons show next year... their collection especially the jackets is what i really love....

End of part 1 of photos.

Part 2 will be up another time when i am free.

You can check more photos taken at audi fashion fest @ lenne's http://dearophelia.wordpress.com/

This week i have a iphone TVC to film once i complete pre-production papers.

fucked up year

what did i do to get these shit? really! first, i having issues talking to my dad thanks to his male menspause... then i starting to have sleeping issues. i can lie on the bed for hours then i can sleep. next is having the feeling tt i am outcast in class once again. then alot of shit is happening in the photography club which giving me a headache. from missing filters to mia tripod to cam body tt cannot work. and the school is expecting us to pay the repairs first.


what other shit was there? oh i was in hosp overnight and felt like i was dying. after my first year ended i thought year 2 would be better for me but. within 8 days of school. my macbook pro was stolen. there goes my portfolio, work and life. then now school may not loan me money for a second one. so there goes my plan to buy a new dslr and my wacom. there goes the relation with my dad. there goes my dream. then she now is getting on my nerves. even though i love her. she dun even bother to be nice or greatful of all the shit work i did for her. all the extra work i do. and in return, all i got was nothing but fucked up attitude.

it is getting bad for me till the point tt i think it is okay tt i get a heart attack in ns . i had a great life. but really it is getting fucking unlucky till the pointthathe s ih dunit carefor liao. what did i do to get all These shit?

from bullied to getting outcast. to being rejected to robbed. ignored.. i think no one will cry over me when i dead.

so much for being the mister nice guy.
what goes around does'nt come around

no luck with girls

Really.
The type that i should date are attached...
the type i like tend to be abit bitchy.
then the rest, sadly i have no interest

and good friends are not good interest to chase...

haiz

i miss my mac...

i miss my rideback wallpaper.
i miss my widgets.
i miss my ical...
i miss my itunes...
i miss using 2 fingers to scroll
i miss using apple/command + w
i miss not HAVING to update my OS EVERY DAY...
i miss the alarm clock on my mac..

fuck the idiot that stole it. and it looks like he entered my gmail account on may day. told the cops about it. and they say they see what they can do....



on another news... WTF... do i need to wait 11mins for a train??? and NEL purposely did not show the timings on the platform or announce that there were delays in the train services.... i was at dhouby ghaut waiting for a north bound punggol train for like 12mins, and man the platform was pack... this was taken at farrer park station. after i got off.

my mac is gone...

i am gone... happy new year... -.-

grilled chicken omu rice...

Shokudo's omu rice is nicer than that omu rice stall at taka, but the price is still killer T.T.... ranging from SGD7.80 to SGD14.80 [excluding 10% service charge and 7% GST] but shokudo is like marche, which is firstly self-service, and secondly there is no free water -.-. The idea of market place eateries is that the staff dun need to do any service, they should be manning the food stations. and it is just a up-class/ european hawker centre....

oh wells i had a nice dinner.

Re-post: D90

A repost from moodlessdays.wordpress.com



I did not buy it. but well i rented one from The Camera Rental Centre at south bridge road.



The D90 comes with 2 Charged Batt, Charger, 4GB SD card for $45.


I also rented a AF-D 50mm f/1.4 lens. well it was not a disappointment, but i now know why you use lights to light up a model instead of using the aperture. The lens was great when the place is nicely lit, but in backlight, it was horrible till it was like at f/2.8...

Photos from the shoot will be up soon.

mhh mhh mhhhhhh

How To Say Goodbye by Paul Tiernan



Living isn't quite the same
You said to me, it's runnin' away.
If you're scared or tired of what you're scared of
Why should you stay
You love to say goodbye
And always counted all the time
'til he was free
to get up and leave
to learn how to breathe
again...

Slippin' out to have a cigarette
with someone else that he'd never met
Ask her if by the way would you like to
run away and try to forget
Just not to stay
To leave without saying why

To get up and go
To catch the last train
To get in some car and drive out again
To never come back this way
Left to say:

goodbye
so long
farewell
ovwar

goodbye
so long
farewell
ovwuar


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sadly speaking... i feel like buying a pack and smoke again...

why will u rather to watch a pixar film instead of a dreamworks one.

Click on pic for full view.

and if u add in monster vs aliens .. really... dreamworks... can't you beat pixar moives, whose idea were written back in 1995???

camwhore the PRO way

*cough* those that use my D40 to camwhore, you dun need to keep checking whether everyone is in... with the new D5000, there is an LCD screen for you!

hahahahha

timetable is out

i have wednesdays free.... so... it is open for shoots, meeting, outings... and rest...

but well at least i dun have too long days. *wait thursday is still 9am to 9pm*

if you have animax

dun download FMA please..

okay i actually missed the 8.30 timeslot and had to record it via hubstation...

review of animax release of FMA: botherhood.

1. it is SD.
2. Subs sized nicely white with black border
3. dun see any subbing issues... [beat that odex]
4. they sub all the small text too.. which is kinda rare for odex and and older animax subbed shows..
5. armstrong mouth is not moving...

overall. i find that it is kinda confusing for first timer to watch FMA:botherhood. 


For LAMB.

animax asia first orginal production. and sadly speaking. i was very hype up about it when i first got the posters and the concept arts. but now i watching it.

animation: kinda sadly fail... 
background art: nice but not so great
character art: 2D rendered of 3D models??? at like 10fps?
camera action: alot of jump cuts.
voice. the mouth and voice dun match and it is made to be in english, not that it is dubbed for english.
storyline: seems okay... abit confusing at the start. VERY confusing at the ending...

with this and the animation budget. i have to say what kind of animation with that kind of budget can crap up to this point?

the ending is so messy that that i am lost. one moment, jack say he can make a new plant, then next is keiko getting LAMB, then out of no where she is fighting with eve... then jack appear out of no where again... and i tell you LAMB with no dialogs is boring. the sound effects dun match the visual elements.

the story was too rush to fit in to a 1 hr short film slot. it will be better if it was a 3 or 4 part mini series.

rating for LaMB: 2/5
Very dissapointting...

the need to get uniqlo clothes...

You got to admit it. uniqlo knows how to advertise... http://www.uniqlo.com/uniqlo1000/map/

now. I have the urge to go to tampines just to shop at the only local uniqlo shop in singapore.

i ain't DLing FMA

i dun see a need to download it, i just need to record in from animax on friday.

and crunchyroll is showing shangri-la so i see how it goes.

late spring cleaning...

i am redoing my blog once again... so most of the fren links will be gone... only those i am actively checking will be on it.

Also... i will be removing ppl from my msn list. it is too long, too messy and only 20% talks to me, and another 40% i dunnoe who the fuck are you.

i think it is going to be a great year 2...

i have no reason to stay up late.

for like many weeks,  since i was admitted to A&E, I either rushing work out for the assignments dateline or recently watching all the american dramas that are on ch 5 at 2am.

From Closer to home then grey's anatomy. that is how i spent my 2 to 3 in the morning. But with it going back to cold case season 4. i think i see no reason to be up that late again.

well that what i hope since i will be having 8am class on fridays [abit of a fucked up thing coz it is not even a core module, but have to work my ass off for it]

well time to get back to my "normal" sleeping habit to sleep before ET on ch 5 shows...

my spring 2009 anime watch list.

who knows i may anime blog them...

for this season i will be watching these few that seem interesting to me...

K-On!: [april 2th] story revolves around four Japanese high school girls who join their school's light music club to try to save it from being abolished. However, they are the only members of the club, and none of them have any experience playing musical instruments or reading sheet music.

Reason to watch?: From the makers of haruhi and lucky star. And i need some joke anime to watch. It should be good coming from kyoto animation.

Haruhi : [april 15th]
Reason to watch?: do i need to say? it is haruhi. all heed the almightly haruhi.

Fullmetal Alchemist: Brotherhood : [april 5th]this will be a remake so it is season one again but following the manga this time round.

Reason to watch?: It was the first few anime i watched and it is by bones. but some sources say, it is over hyped up and the producers just want to earn more. Well more FMA cosplayer will be for this year. and also it will be out on Animax asia, subbed in english airing from 10 Apr 09, every Fridays 8.30pm.

Shangri-la : [april 5th] The anime series is based on the highly acclaimed novel of the same name which was written by Eiichi Ikegami and won the first place in 2005 Japanese Sci-Fi Novel Award.

Reason to watch?: Character art by Range Murata from last exile and the art looks interesting. It caught my eye when i was browsing newtype.

Eden of the east : [april 9th]
November 22, 2010. Monday.
Ten missiles hit the territory of Japan.
However, this unprecedented terrorist act, later to be known as "Careless Monday" apparently did not cause any victim, and was soon forgotten by almost everyone.

Then, 3 months later...
Saki Morimi is a young woman currently in the United States of America on her graduation trip. But just when she is in front of the White House, Washington DC, se gets into troubles, and only the unexpected intervention of one of her fellow countrymen saves her day.

Reason to watch?: Cause it is by Production IG. I just love their works. hahaha. another reason it is by one of my favourite anime director, Kenji Kamiyama and characters art by honey and clover's manga artist... if you watch the trailer, it looks like honey clover in ghost in the shell world!

last one is an OVA

Dogs: bullets and carnage: [may 19th]
Reason to watch?: Nice manga, it looks like it is going to be good... if i have the chance won't mind cosplaying badou.

who knows what i going to write about? and well at least this spring 2009 season looks better than winter, where i only followed rideback

what am i supposed to be?

I thought i had my life planned out, but recently i giving it more thought.

What if i am not able to make it?
What if i crap up?
What if i mess up my works?

really i kinda forgotten all my maya training from less than 6 months ago. It took me like 16 hours to model a simple ipod and it still look weird.

And i really realised, my photos ain't great or wonderful. I been shooting and shooting and shooting, but i felt that i am getting no where. it is like i am stuck there, no matter what i do, i am stuck at this level, and i cannot go up. it is like something is limiting me. I guess it is me that is limiting me. It is not about the tools, it is not about the location. It is just me...

I am not sure how i am going to get through this remaining 2 years of studies. I feel that i am drained out, like i am not supposed to do this, but then, what am i really supposed to do?

I quited too many things just to try something new, and then quit it cause i am tired out. I am getting no where at this rate. No matter what goal i set my sights on, as time go by, i felt there was no way i can grab it....

so what i can really grab please? nothing i guess.
Stuck here being the small green frog that is stuck in the well....
I can't let that happen but it is still going on.

sweet... my GPA went up by 0.1598

which is bullshit please...

back when $1 = 1 GB

i just increased my storage space in my PC by 1.6 times by just adding 1 500GB harddisk. Which cost just $99!!! that is like 5GB for $0.99 or... 19 cents a GB... that is like 5 times cheaper than when i first DIY this PC...

a IDE 160GB harddisk cost like $160... so storage was an issue, but these days... with 4 SATA ports... this PC can take up to 4 TB at like $180 x 4... and that is like... 18 cents a GB... T.T

damn technology... my stuff would be outdated in months at this rate~

a shoot finally...

It has been a while but i finally had a proper photoshoot today...



a short shoot in NP. and of all places the roof of fms again. I think lenne is bored of the place coz this is the 3rd shoot she was at that location.

More pics can be found on my dA.

i am so lazy...

guess what... i realised i am so lazy to log into my blogger that why i have not been blogging but i think i fixed it.

all thanks to an old widget made by google in 07... a blogger widget... so i can blog from my widget screen instead of a url... oh wells..

i should be updating more regluarly soon lolz...

togu u need more pics

some one said that recently in reply y my blog is so dead... but really i dun have an iphone that make my life easier to transfer photos and all..

wasting my time away...

i just wasted my whole monday afternoon in my bed as it as raining till it is so cold.

But well that is not the point. It is that i have nothing to do this holiday. No shoots, no job, no meetings, no one to go out with.

Then when i have shoots, she keeps postponing it. come on please, it is been a long time that i wanted to shoot her but she just keep last minute postpone it due to some bullshit. and sometimes i wonder, if i did not meet her, will i be who i am now? she really changed my life back in sec 3/4. without her... i guess i will still be in aerospace being a geek -.- haiz life...

and i am still not blogging properly...

i ain't dead...

it is just that there is nothing to really post about my life or i have things to say.

it has been 2 weeks since the term ended for me and i spending my days sleeping and nights gaming... i want to start on some personal projects but well my copperhead is dead so i cannot maya for now. then there is the rainy weather so i can't really shoot unless i use my wet weather gear which is a free plastic bag from NTUC and isolation tape... but i myself dun have a good enough jacket or shoes to shoot in the rain..

oh wells, time for dinner.

damn....

my projects are all done and submitted and here i am. wondering too much again...

did i mess up my 2nd sem? i am not talking about results as i know what i going to get...

i am wondering about my class once again... year after year in this education system, i wonder when will it be the last time i will not get outcasted...

in primary school it was due to my aunt who was the disciple mistress for 2 years... some of them knew it. then it was the case of i did not fit in as from the top few classes i fell between the cracks to the last few...

in secondary school, i was bullied too much by idiots and "frens"... the only place i felt in school was the robotics lab, where all the "different" people met...

1st year in poly, Aerospace, i was totally i can say different from all that was there... i kinda stood out like a sore thumb then when i thought i will be normal in dvfx... i still sticking out different from the rest... i dunnoe y, but am i that different to them? am i that weird coz i am an otaku? coz i read manga, listen to japanese music, have a different taste in arts and food.

Do i need to conform?

wait is it worth trying to conform? I am who i am coz i did not want to be what i was supposed to be. I tried to be different to fit in, but i guess i am too different that i cannot fit in once again....

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Looking at you now, remember how you gave me shit,
And I made lemonade out of it
Pass me the sugar and things still won't be right!
Look what you've built, now are you proud of your deceitful quilt
Well I won't cover myself in it, the warmth has just been choking me!

Thanks! Thanks for nothing
I've taken all you got and started walking,
Not broken, still standing,
Been ripped apart, but now I'm demanding
No more shit, this is it
I am leaving for myself and no one else
So long, been swell, see you in hell!

What would you say? Can't hear
you buried in the lies that you've laid.
I'm breaking myself away from that chain, to bad you don't understand why
I'm walking away, and if you're lucky then someday I may
Possibly forgive you for all of it.
But not today, BUT NOT TODAY!

Lemonade by Tsunami Bomb

i am 19 plus 4 days

no time to update here due to school work. but well i am 19 for 4 days liao...

check my dA and etc for the works.

update

short update of what happened after the new year started..

2/1: had a shoot with kage
3/1: cosplay shoot at SBG
4/1: down with fever
5/1: was in hosp for stomach flu... was vomiting and well was dying...
6/1: was 1st day of school, when for class to submit the photography assignment then back home to rest
7/1: in bed [still in pain]
8/1: all better, NP open house and my dad's birthday, had Korean for dinner
9/1: NP open house, shot alot of stage events
10/1: spend the day shooting gigs at NP open house...
11/1: went to do new year shopping, jeans, shorts and well shirts... need to get a new shoe and wallet. and bag...

12/1: going to plan my 300 pages animation... and redo my character design... my HG-01 and CAT bot is too blocky to be animated.... and do note it is an 10-30sec clip... in the afternoon going to the bank to change my ATM card and try to put some cash into paypal.