burnt, tired and blocked

Mistaken thoughts from beyond the sky
A life spent saying goodbye?
The little piece of the future I saw
Was waving goodbye

The small room I once lived in
Is now occupied by someone else
The horrible things I said to you
The days that were wasted

Perhaps if I'd taken that chance, if I could go back to that day
But I'll never be that person again

Even if that frail happiness
had somehow lingered on
A bad seed would surely have sprouted
So I guess this is goodbye

The cold cans of coffee from freezing winters
That long rainbow coloured scarf
I stroll through the back alley
It all comes back to me

Even if that frail happiness
had somehow lingered on
A bad seed would surely have sprouted
So I guess this is goodbye

I guess

Goodbye, that's enough
You can cope anywhere
Goodbye, I'll manage somehow too
Goodbye, that's what I'll do

translation of solanin by AKFG [asian kung fu generation]




well i been feeling that way for the past few weeks. but well i go and continue to move on.

Been quite burnt out with the final learning semester in school. aft this 15 weeks, i will be on to do my Final year project, which as it looks like is a Short Stereoscopic 3D film, which i am the producer coz no one else want to take the job and well the class think i am the best for the job.

I know i was trying to avoid all these extra stress, but ya at least my name will be on it that i produced that 3D short film. But before it starts, I have alot of shit to finish especially my Visual effects portfolio... which sadly is too thin that my Photography one beats it. But really after this year, i dunnoe what will i be doing. Going Uni? singapore or UK? or NZ? or USA? what course am I going for? continue on my Photography? or stick to Visual effects? speciallise in Compostiting? work on AE? maya? go and be a matchmover? I really dunnoe, thinking too much and creating a path in my head is kinda making me tired till the point i just want to stay at home and just lie on my bed and stare at that blank white ceiling with the fan spinning away in this heat.

I really dunnoe what i am doing, for all my life i been jumping around, never staying put. Never speciallizing in something. From the time of scouts to swimming to robotics to photography to cosplay to filmming to fashion photgraphy, they some how are interlinked but yet they are separate genre to me. I every 3 years i move, it is going to take a toll soon, and it looks like it is coming.

I just need a break or someone to guide me. or i should just go on a long trip and disappear for awhile. I dunnoe, i just dunnoe. i Just dun want to spent a life just saying goodbye.