moodless night

How to say good bye by Paul Tiernan


Living isn't quite the same
You said to me, it's runnin' away.
If you're scared or tired of what you're scared of
Why should you stay
You love to say goodbye
And always counted all the time
'til he was free
to get up and leave
to learn how to breathe
again...

Slippin' out to have a cigarette
with someone else that he'd never met
Ask her if by the way would you like to
run away and try to forget
Just not to stay
To leave without saying why

To get up and go
To catch the last train
To get in some car and drive out again
To never come back this way
Left to say:

goodbye
so long
farewell
ovwar

goodbye
so long
farewell
ovwuar

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is it farewell?

so really all these 4 years...

we finally coming to the breaking point is it?

of all things you told the wrong person. really.

well life have to go on and you stop ignoring me  . things cannot get patch up by ignoring.

my schedule for the next few days

wednesday: 
1pm, be in NP, hope avid lab empty.
4pm, actual booking starts
4.30pm, collect cam from cage.
6pm, avid booking ends...

thursday:
10am in NP, pack photog room
2pm need to rush to zhao wei films.
3.30pm interview.
5pm rush to meet sponser.
6pm done?

friday:
10am in NP, move stuff from photog room to  new storage place.
5pm, avid booking again
6pm get kick out?

saturday?
go see see the mascot parade?
NEED to go to kino...  MPD and kurosaki corpses sevrices vol 9 are out!!!!
cut hair...
edit interview footage.

sunday.
Finish up production papers
finish up interview footage.

monday:
class at 2pm
avid at 6pm.

-normal day cycle returns-

life goes on... without me..

why? coz i am always left out of the picture...
hated to be casted one side while i do things for you people, then left to be forgotten till i am needed again...

oh wells it got to be karma for having a good life, with no real shit really happening...

fuck you maya...

really fuck you...

i command+S every time and yet, for the last 6hours, you never save. fuck you... now i am screwed. big time...

maya maya maya

really...

now i know why they name maya, maya. If it was a name like james, or 3D program A...

you cannot say fuck james when it crashes.. 
you also cannot say screw 3Dprogram when the backups disappears...

at least when u say fuck/screw/shit maya... it still sound natural...